UN-HAPPINESS

Two papers had passed... FIVE papers more to sit for T.T why am I the last one to leave Kampar? Why Oh Why? Kenapa larh ini berlaku pada diri ku? Tomorrow my room-mate(lsimz..that bamBam), sueSue and szeMin gonna return to Ipoh after their 2pm-4pm BIS paper. They will only return again on the 3rd and 6th of February. They are not going to overnight in Kampar on that two days. They will immediately return to Ipoh again after their exam papers. *sobSob* left chuilynn and I here only. The house is so quiet and empty without those three musketeers. It's extra scary and extra quiet at night...Oh No~!!! The three girls can be free from exam on the 6th of February, Chuilynn on the 8th and me is the last one to return to Ipoh..wehWEHweh~!!!!!

I'm feeling unhappy each passing day. I'm waiting to fly back to Ipoh again. I feel so...miss Ipoh...my hometown beneath all the twinkling stars above. Why lerh my exam papers have to skip so many days? I prefer to have it on alternate days then quickly merdeka erh. sadSAdsad...so sad! My head is getting heavier each day though that bamBam's head more berat than mine. I feel like standing on the window sill in my room here and shout my heart out to the world out there. ^^ I know a good place in Ipoh where I can do that too and that place is much higher than here.

There's so many things I wana do and I guess I'm gonna do it after exam. I'm waiting for my exam days to pass so i can leave this not so happy place. Hopefully i'll be back in Ipoh in one piece...safe and sound. That bamBam killed my guardian angel...white butterfly. That rama-rama took care of me for two days when the rest were not around. *smackHead* she killed it and made a little burial for it in the toilet bowl then she flushed it away.

Oh...my white guardian angel, please forgive that bamBam. She's just...erm...evil toward you but she's kind toward me. She'll takeCare of me but will not be my guardian angel. So, you don't have to worry bout me too much. May you rest in peace....my white guardian angel who got flushed down the toilet bowl.

So, bamBam...I know you're reading this. Please do not kill another butterfly when you see it again. They are as innocent as 'you' (cross finger) do.

As a reminder, do not sepak me down from the bed after you read this..iyorhIyorh~!!!! ^^

EXAM SEASON

Yesterday was the first day of our exam which is 25th January 2007...ENGLISH PAPER~!!!!! My exam venue was at the library block..D109. The first thing I went into the hall, I find the last seat under my course then sat on it. I duduk paling belakang and I was shivering, nearly pengsan kesejukan. =p I didn't take my sweater along...kieOkie..my fault and padan muka me. When I start to do the second part of the paper, IYARK...headache struck me. Out of nowhere, my head was aching. Maybe because it was too cold and I was attacked with brain freeze. 5 minutes left and I still couldn't think of the answer for the last question on the last part of the paper. *smackHead smackHead* I was smacking my head because there was no water for me to sprinkle..heaHeahea *ahem* =p so mm guan si tim. Then, I began to make a flashback bout me and...(name is confidential). Suddenly, out of nowhere again, the answer for the last question popped-up in my mind and I was WIKIKIKIKI ^^ jumping joyfully in my mind..kiKiki!!!!

During the night, I did some revision again AND....I had a friend with me. This friend of mine is also your friend and a good one indeed.

recognise her? ^^ She's the one and only...MOI LING SIM!!!!!!!

She's unique..buohohoho! Just look at the way she study...creative leh?! Actually, she was squatting at the balcony and study geh. Unfortunately, she saw a dead little lizard being eaten by ants and there were weird noises from the mamak stall opposite our apartment therefore she decided to shift back into the living room and have her revision with me. ^^ I had a company..kikikiki~!!!!!

oOpszie..little linggi shyShy d.

Hmmmm....I wonder why she's so shy over here when she kinda often snaps her own pictures by herself. If you all want to know her more, heaHeahea...I'm sure you all have her msn,friendster and contact number. You all can always learnt to do your revision in a creative style like our little linggi here.

XD sorry little linggi! I'm too free so decided to update this...buohohohoho~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M SORRY =(

I'm sorry to you~

I'm truely sorry to my friend whose picture is above...LEE SENG FOO. I've been a badGirl to him recently and a really stubborn friend when he gave me advice. I didn't want to follow lingsim's style of saying sorry..(the 1000 words) so I decided to do it this way instead.

Minta maaf kawan ku. I'd rather you scold me right in my face than giving me silent treatment. I'll wait til your temper decrease.

I'll be waiting right here for you to beng me =) cuz I know I did wrongly this time.

EXAM....HAOSI...PEPERIKSAAN

Oh no...hari kiamat ku sudah menjelang. The season when influenza attack wa. That's the symtom that tells wa...EXAM IS HERE and it's attacking the inner wa. TARC's final exam season is from 25th January 07- 10th February 07.

25th Jan 07 - ENGLISH - 2pm to 4pm

27th Jan 07 - KB2 - 9am to 11am

31st Jan 07 - E-PUBLISHING - 2pm to 4pm

2nd Feb 07 - LAW - 2pm to 4pm

7th Feb 07 - DRAMA - 2pm to 4pm

8th Feb 07 - IT(resit) - 2pm to 4pm

9th Feb 07 - PUBLIC RELATION - 2pm to 4pm

Hadjorjorjor~!!!!!!!!!!

Apasal inimacam? Haihz... the bluish wordings above is wa's course's exam timetable. T.T Compare to wa's housemates exam timetable, my exam period is the longest and wa is the last one to return to Ipoh...hadjorjorjor~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*shakeHead*

T.T WHY,KENAPA...?



What can you really see in her?



As usual, I sure have flu during exam season. Every year also the same...hadjorjor~!!!!! BUT....why this year my flu brought a friend along? Flu brought sadness into me. I don't like this feelings. I don't like the friend of flu. Sadness is evil-ish~!!! It takes my tears away from my body.

Exam coming liao...25th January - 10th February. My exam date is on the 25th, 27th, 31st, 2nd, 7th, 8th and 9th. This round I totally have no confidence on this final exam at all. I've thought of giving up and start a new life somewhere where no one knows me. But..asking myself...where can I go? Without proper education, I'll end up as nothing in the society. My friends all coping and catching up with their own studies and life and I'm hear...total blur..in total sadness. Somewhere inside me..tears trickling. I don't want to fail? I want to pass all my exam papers. At least I want to graduate from diploma and get a job out there with that certificate. Suddenly..sadness filling-up my body. I want a bearHug now. I want a star. I want my luckyStar.

Why I have to be like this? Why am I like this? Why GOD made me inimacam? Why am I a weak girl? Why am I so easily emotional? How come I'm not like the other strong people out there? They can face their life and hold on tightly to their fate.

Me?? *shakeHead* I'm weak inside and out. I only know how to cakap but not once I've fulfilled what I said.

*tears trickling inside my heart*

HOROSCOPES~


SCORPIO
.Can be mean.
.EXTREMELY sexy
.Intelligent
.Energetic
.Predict future
.Most erotic>(Freak in bed.)>(GREAT kisser.)
.Always get what they want
.Sexy
.Attractive
.Easy going
.Loves being in long relationships
.Talkative
.The sexiest ever....>Romantic.>Caring

LIBRA
.Very pretty
.Very romantic
.Nice to everyone they meet
.Their Love is one of a kind
.Silly, fun and sweet
.Have own unique sexiness
.Most caring person you will ever meet!
.Amazing n Bed..!!!>Did I say Amazing in Bed?
.not the kind of person you wanna ........ with cause u might end up crying
.the most irresistible

ARIES
.Outgoing
.lovable
.Spontanious
.Not one to ........ with. cause u might end up in a wheelchair
.Erotic
.Funny.
.Take you on trips to the moon in bed
.excellent kisser
.EXTREMELY sexy
.Loves being in long relationships.=)
.Addictive
.best in bed

AQUARIUS
.Trustworthy
.Sexy
.Great kisser
.One of a kind
.Loves being in long-term relationships
.Extremely energetic
.unpredictable
.will exceed your expectations
.Not a Fighter, But will Knock yourl ights out
.Amazing in bed
.THE BEST LOVERS BETTERTHAN EVERYONE!

GEMINI
.Nice
.Love is one of a kind
.Great listeners
.VERY GOOD IN BED!!!
.Lover not a fighter, but will still punch your lights out
.Trustworthy
.Always happy
.Loud
.Talkative
.Outgoing
.Very forgiving
.Loves to make out
.Has a beautiful smile
.Generous
.Strong

LEO
.Great talker
.Sexy and passionate
.Laid back
.Knows how to have fun
.Is really good at kissing
.Unpredictable
.Outgoing
.Down to earth
.Addictive
.Attractive
.Loud
.Loves being in long relationships
.Talkative
.Not one to mess with
.Rare to find
.Good when found

CANCER
.Most amazing kisser
.Very high sex appeal
.Beautiful smile
.Love is one of a kind
.Loves being in long relationships
.Rare to find,easy to lose if you're not careful!
.Lovable
.Most caring person you will ever meet!
.Entirely creative
.Random and proud of it
.Sweet personality
.Great listener

PISCES
.Caring and kind
.Smart
.Center of attention
.Too Sexy
.Very high sex appeal
.The best to find, hardest to keep
.Fun to be around
.Freak in the sheets
.Extremely weird but in a good way
.Super good in bed
.Good Sense of Humor!!!
.Thoughtful
.A partner for life

CAPRICORN
.Nice
.Sassy
.Intelligent
.Sexy
.Predict future
.Irrestible, awes0me kisser
.Loves being in long relationships
.Great talker
.Always gets what he or she wants
.BY FAR the BEST in BED
.Very sexy
.Coolest
.Loves to own Gemini's in sports
.very funny
.loves to joke
.Loves to be your first...so u'll never forget

TAURUS
.Aggressive
.Freak in bed
.Rare to find!
.Loves being in long relationships
.Likes to give a good fight for what they want
.Extremely outgoing
.Sexy as ........Very popular and Outstanding kisser
.Very funny
.Awesome personality
.Most caring person you will ever meet!
.One of a kind
.Not one to ........ with
Are the most sexiest people on earth!

VIRGO
.Dominant in relationships
.Sexy
.someone loves them right now
.Freak in bed
.Always wants the last word
.Caring.>Smart.>Addictive.>Attractive.>Loud.>Loyal.>Easy to talk to
.Hard to forget

SAGITTARIUS
.Spontaneous
.Freak in Bed
.High sex appeal
.Rare to find
.Great when found
.So much love to give
.Not one to mess with
.Very romantic
.Nice to everyone they meet
.Silly, fun and sweet

buakakaka~ you guys/girls check it out yourselves.
Wa comment-less bout it =p

ARIES...HOROSCOPE KU~

Zodiac sign begins with Aries. It is the very first sign. Ram is the symbol of Aries. It represents courage. Aries signifies the beginning or dawn. It is also known as season of spring. It is also famous as pioneer or warrior. Aries is also known as House of Self.

The positive features of Aries are adventurous, confident, dynamic, freedom and courageous.
The negative features of Aries are short-temper, impatient, undiplomatic and self-centered.
People born under Aries like action, challenge and spontaneity. Aries usually have a disliking for failure, tyranny and waiting.

Aries Female
Aries female love challenges. Aries female loves making intelligent friends. They are hard to dominate. Love is not the ultimate destination of Aries female. She can also live without partner.
Aries female will be a great wife for ambitious male. Aries female have a usual liking for well-mannered, cultured and educated men. Jealousy one of the major negative traits of Aries female. Aries females are known for their great will power and confidence.Love Life of Aries is Charming and loving nature of Aries is always admired by opposite sex. Aries have a passionate nature and love intensely. Expressing love is quite tough for them. Passion, fun, devotion and protection are a few major positive features of Aries in love.

On the other hand, fickle-mind, ego, jealousy and possessiveness are major negative features of Aries in love.

Physical Appearance of Aries
Aries have usually broad shoulders and are tall. They are quite strong have great built and elongated face. Forehead of Aries is quite prominent. It is quite high, prominent and round.
Complexion of Aries is usually fair and having sandy colored hair. Aries natives are also short and have robust built. They have dark hair and have open pored complexion. Aries are usually charming, noble and attractive. They have a sympathetic and warm heart.

Given below are a few significant lucky charms of Aries.
Lucky Number: 9
Lucky Color: Crimson or Deep red
Lucky Flower: Geranium
Lucky Day: Tuesday
Lucky Gemstones: Ruby, Garnet, Amethyst and Topaz.
Lucky Metal: Iron

SATURDAY CLASS SUXX~

Do you know why I dislike Saturday's class? The reason is.. because I'm all alone in this apartment I'm staying in Kampar. All my housemate who are staying here with me, will be back in ipoh on friday. Their classes until friday only. Most of the students here leave kampar on friday. So, you can see that there will be not many cars here after friday noon.

Sueling and Lingsim went back yesterday because they don't have classes til next monday again. Today, Szemin went back to ipoh also. Fortunately, ^^ Chuilynn have presentation tomorrow while Livann have presentation on Sunday..pity Livann alone in Kampar. This week, I have two friends to accompany me...ikikiki~!!! Next week onwards, wa's saturday class will change to Friday night...7pm-9pm...wikikiki~!!! Wa don't have to be in Kampar alone again..heahea~!!!

1 LITRE OF TEARS~


This dorama is about a girl who was diagnosed with a disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration when she was 15 years old, and was able to continue her life until her death at the age of 25 years old.

The plot is based on the true story of a Japanese girl named Kito Aya, who had the same disease. She kept writing in her diary to remember her experiences until she could no longer hold a pen. Aya simply wished to live until the end of her life, and the purpose of writing in the diary was to remind herself to not give up. She shed tears many times, at the same time encompassed by the rich love and support from her family, friends, and boyfriend. Her diary “1 Litre of Tears” was published after her death, because of its inspiring and courageous message of, “Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.” So far, over 18,000,000 copies of her diary have been sold.

This dorama features Sawajiri Erika, Nishikido Ryou, Narumi Riko, Yakushimaru Hiroko, Jinnai Takanori and Fujiki Naohito. Sawajiri Erika has powerfully brought out the character of Aya, and people who watch this dorama will feel compassion for her while she suffers from the illness. My tears flowed after almost every episode as I questioned myself, “What would I do if I were Aya?” This is a dorama where you can see a 15 year old young girl who was able to face her disease bravely, and tried her best to treasure the time she spent with her friends, family and boyfriend everyday she could.

To me, this was one of the best doramas of 2005, mainly because the reality of this story has enlightened me. I realized that my life is not that tough compared to those who are suffering from an incurable disease. “1 Litre of Tears” stood out for a reason: it is not because Aya was upset because of her disease, she was touched by the love and patience she received from her friends and family. I was amazed by the braveness with which she chose to live her life, as a strong girl who was only 15 years old, yet managed to face her cruel fate with a positive outlook, and tried her best to do whatever she could by herself.

This dorama starts right before Aya is confronted with the illness, Spinocerebellar Degeneration, in which the nerve cells of areas necessary for the human body to move and balance–including the cerebellum, brain stem, and spinal cord–transform and eventually disappear.

Ikeuchi Aya (Sawajiri Erika), a 15 year old girl, is the eldest daughter in a normal Japanese family. She lives with her reliable mother, Shioka, who works as a nutritionist, her father, Mizuo, the wacky owner of a tofu shop, her quiet younger brother, Hiroki, and two younger sisters, the sarcastic Ako and innocent Rika. On the day of her high school entrance exam, she left the house full of energy, but she missed her stop to get off the bus and walk to her high school because she fell asleep. She quickly got off and ran from the bus in the rain when she discovered she was late. She slipped, fell down and injured her knee. At that time, she met Haruto Aso, who was trying to skip the exam. He gave her a ride to school, the administrators allowed them to take the exam (despite the fact that Haruto was uninterested in taking it), which they both later passed.

The new semester began, Aya and Haruto were in the same class, and both were elected as the representative of their class. Aya also joined the basketball team, and was reunited with the boy who she was fond of from the male basketball team. Just as she was beginning to enjoy her high school days, Aya starts to experience some physical difficulties. She always dropped food from her chopsticks, could not estimate the distance of the objects in front of her, could not pour water into a cup without spilling it, and occasionally wobbled while walking. Her mother, Shioka, who was the only one to notice the physical changes in Aya, started to worry about what was going on.

One day, Aya’s life started to change after she tripped and fell. She couldn’t protect herself with her hands while falling and she hurt her face. After this, her illness is slowly revealed and her tragedy begins…

How would you be if you couldn't walk freely anymore?
How would you be if you couldn't talk anymore?
How would you be if you couldn't move anymore?
How would you be if you're aware of anything around you, but you can't to anything?

The people around you sees that you're slowly getting more and more sick every day..the pain to see..the tears you'll cry.. the sickness is progressing slowly, but it definitely continueing...

What will you do if you were 1 of them?Will you give-up just like that or be like Aya?

After watching this drama, it reminds me of the days I used to spent in the hospital. I remember those feelings when my family came to take care of me day and night and the moments where my friends went to visit me too. My parent and relatives tried their best to find out bout the causes that made me couldn't move my legs or walk around. That time, the doctor said that my the disease I had is rare. There is no proper medication for my illness unless there's miracle that I could walk again. I had to undergo physiotherapy everyday. The doctor even did electric shock kinda therapy to check the nerve. He told my parent that I have to take some fluid out of my tulang sumsum part to check more. He said it's gonna be very painful. I was scared. I didn't want that on me. I prayed day and night in my heart that GOD would let me walk again and thank GOD he did it. Now, I'm walking and jumping around again. I was so happy. The day I was discharged from hospital, the doctor told me to takeCare because that disease will attack me again. The only thing is, he don't know when.

By the way, I don't care much bout those anymore. I believe that the disease has totally left me and never gona attack me again. Here I am blogging and doing whatever I am doing now. When I walked out of that hospital that day, I told myself that I never gona admit into hospital at a young age like this again.

You all might think that what I had typed here is so lame. But..to me, that incident was a memorable one. I will forever remember how my family and friends came to visit me and truely cared bout me.

Back to the story bout 1 litre of tears..Kitou Aya passed away on the 23rd of May 1988.

I agree with the message she left for all before her last breath...

“Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.”

SHOOTING STAR

ARTIST: RYOSUKE NERIKI


nagareboshi ga yokogiru
tsukanoma no shizukesa ni
sora ni nobasu yubisaki
todoku wake nai takasugite

itanda kokoro wasureta furi shite
arukitsuzukete wa iru keredo
motometeta no wa kieta maboroshi to
ki ga tsuite ita yo

hateshinaku susunde mo
otoseya shinai yo
setsunasa ga kono karada
shihai suru

kanashimi o omoide ni
kaereya shinai yo
okubyou o kono mune ga
kakaeteru

negau koto ga hoshi ni
mitsukaranai no wa
kanaeru mono wa jibun to
wakarisugiterute

ni wa dekinu mono nara
kagayaki o tomete kure
yoru no kage ni kakurete
wazuka na hikari dake de ii

toritsukurotte kizu fukamete iru
hiyowa na kimochi o moteamasu
sagashiteru no wa yume no zangai to
akiramete ita yo

atedonaku hashitte mo
ikitsukya shinai yo
tebanashita yasuragi ga
oikakeru

mezameru no kowakutte
nemureya shinai yo
itsu made mo yasashisa ni
najimenai

nagareboshi ga hitotsu
mata hashirinukeru
hakanai mono wa
jibun to wakarisugiteru

itanda kokoro wasureta furi shite
arukitsuzukete wa iru keredo
motometeta no wa kieta maboroshi to
ki ga tsuite ita yo

hateshinaku susunde mo
otoseya shinai yo
setsunasa ga kono karada
shihai suru

kanashimi o omoide ni
kaereya shinai yo
okubyou o kono mune ga
kakaeteru

atedonaku hashitte mo
ikitsukya shinai yo
tebanashita yasuragi ga
oikakeru

mezameru no kowakutte
nemureya shinai yo
itsu made mo yasashisa ni
najimenai

nagareboshi ga hitotsu
mata hashirinukeru
hakanai mono wa
jibun to wakarisugiteru



watashiwa too free and found that the title of the song is wa's favourite. So, wa decided to post it ^^
Unfortunately, wa tried to download the song, but failed. Anyone out there who is willing to help wa get the song then send to wa, wa will be super happy ^^ ikikiki~

THE 'LIMA' THINGS~

5 things wa want to do after final exam...

1~ tidur secukupnya
2~ spent time with family
3~ spent time with friends
4~ makan scrumptious food
5~ spent time with my dearr ^^

5 persons or things that wa miss the most...

1~ wa's family
2~ lama tak jumpa punya kawan
3~ susah mao jumpa punya dearr
4~ delicious food
5~ stars in the sky

5 crazy stuffs wa want to do during my coming semester break...

1~ stuff that wa not dare to do o.O
2 - 5~ taktao lagi

5 happenings during the weekends...

1~ yumchar
2~ kacau pple
3~ shopping
4~ cuci muka??
5~ lompat sini sana

5 most wanted things on my pc list...

1~ webcam??
2~ new pc [ini mao breakdown again]
3~ lebih lembut punya keyboard [is there such thing?]
4 - 5~ taktao lagi [wa not good in pc stuff =p ]

5 lengzhais/lengluis wa have met so far in college...

1 - 5~ only wa know ...buakakakaka~

5 things wa hate about exam...

1~ hafal-ing
2~ pimples
3~ tak cukup sleep
4~ stress
5~ panda eyes

5 things to do if wa have a car...

1~ decorate the inner according to wa punya suka
2~ take very good care of it
3~ drive out whenever wa suka to pple hse to kacau pple [since wa is the 1 who goona pay for petrol ]
4~ drive friends out since they fetch wa around kinda often before that.
5~ dunno

5 people wa tag...

1~ lingsim 2~ szemin 3~ sengfoo 4~munben 5~ thianhoe

BORED~

1 week left and 2nd semester going to start. Looking back of the sem break, I noticed that I didn't do anything and had wasted the time I had. I planned to swim, remember? Unfortunately, dad don't let me go...sigh! I'm bored and don't what else to do.

In the meantime, there is also something in my mind. In fact, there's a few thing in my mind which I've been thinking about for the past few weeks. 1 of it is about my exam results. I'm totally worried about it. Do not say that I have no confident in myself. I've been sitting for many exams since primary school and I know my standard and level of intelligence.

The other few more things which were playing in my mind, ^^ I don't plan to tell out here. By the way, those were histories. 1 thing for sure is, ofcourse I'm feeling scared bout it and still feeling so. Nevermind, I was just kind of expressing my thoughts here..hurhur~.

Today is tuesday and there's only 4 days left before I returm to Kampar. o.O suddenly I realised that there will be lots of stuff to shift back to Kampar on Sunday. Many things to arrange again..hadjorjor~. Back in Kampar that time, I'll eat less and drink more plain water. You know why I plan to do so? The reason is...

I'M LAZY TO BRUSH MY 'GIGI' SO MANY TIMES~!!!!!!!!!!

It's still painful when I brush my teeth. Each time, after I had my meal, I have to 'berus' my 'gigi'. So, I'd rather eat less and take in lots of plain water instead. Actually, I miss the tastes of many kind of food. There's so many food that I want to chew and taste it like I used to do before.

*sobSob*~

When will my teeth won't feel this painful anymore? It's kinda suffering looking at others chew their delicious food while I could only chew on soft food.

WAWAwuwuwowo.....~

I'm bored and can't think of any interesting thing to do.

*bang on wall again*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDAUNT~

Yesterday was my grandaunt's birthday. This post was supposed to be updated last night. Unfortunately, while I was half way typing this blog, I accidentally clicked on the 'power' button and the PC shut down. These had happened a few times already due to my carelessness (is there such a word?).

The birthday grandaunt which I don't know how old is she =p

We celebrated grandaunt's birthday at Menglembu's East Ocean Restaurant. The dish I likes the most was the lamb meat. I had that with a few sips of wine which actually turns out to be a few glasses of wine. My granduncle said it's good for blood circulation and made me drank a few glasses of it.

Dad and I after a few glasses of wine

Dad said my face always looks pale and blood-less. Recently, he made sure the family has at least a glass of wine during dinner. He said it's good for the skin complexion. Sometimes I wonder wheather is he training us with alcohol so we won't easily drunk when we drink with other people. Thinking bout that, it's not a bad thing either.

The blood is still circulating in me.

One thing for sure is that I cannot wear sleeveless top when I drink alcohol. This is because, the redness in me which is the blood circulating is obvious beneath my skin. There was once I wore a sleeveless top to a dinner and I took in alot of alcohol. After that, I noticed that my shoulder and back was so red. It's like the kind of allergic skin but I did not feel itchy.

Me in braces ='(

Can you see the sudden changes in me? That is me in braces. Mr Dentist put that on me, today. Earlier on, it was not painful. After I had a short nap, the pain woke me up. Out of a sudden, I felt so painful and still feeling it now. Can you spot the 'senget' teeth in my mouth? That's the reason all of the people in my family made me wear braces. They said my smile will look nicer after my 'gigi tersusun baik'. So, I have to bare with the pain for 2 years. I want to have a better and nicer 'gigi' and a smile, therefore I have to be patient.

The me before I put on braces.

Sigh~. It's so unlucky for me to not have a nice and neat row of 'gigi' since the day my 'gigi susu' were extracted. 'Akibatnya', I'm wearing that steel thing in my mouth now. Suddenly, I can't wait for the day when I don't have to wear braces anymore. It's painful and I couldn't chew anything now. I can only swallow and drink for the meantime.

*Haihz.....~*

ROTTING SEASON~

2nd sem starting on the 15th of october. Meanwhile, I'm rotting til 'sot' already. Sometimes, I wish that college can start soon so I don't have to rot like this.. [look below]

Rotting til bang on the beautiful wall of mine XD

Unfortunately, I couldn't join Suesue, chingz and etc along to genting. If not, I'll be having fun in the cold atmosphere up there with them. I want to go for a trip with friends again rather than rotting like that. I miss so many things and so many people..hadjor~

By the way, the dentist extracted 2 of my 'gigi' and I'm kind of 'gigi'-less now. The dentist shot my 'lelangit' with 6 injections. The feeling of numb was there til it went to my forehead..hadjorjor~.
Now, I can only chew on soft food and I eat kind of slow if the food takes a longer time to chew.

Gigi ku yang tengah berdarah~

Look how pityful am I recently...hadjorjorjor~. I ate so slow til by the time I finish my meal, I'm hungry again. This is because my digestion is working fast on my slow swallow. There are so many kind of food I want to eat but I'm not allowed to. All because of my 'gigi'...haihz!

Before the dentist extract my 'gigi', he made a mould to get the shape of my teeth. Then, he took two x-rays of my 'gigi' to make sure there's no broken bone or jaw and etc. After that, he told me to wait outside awhile while he attent to some other patients. After a few minutes, the nurse called me in again. The dentist told me that he was going to give me "an" injection which turns out to be SIX injections. He said that it's only like an ant bite but there were tears in my eyes. That is because he 'cucuk' me 'enam kali' or else there won't be tears at all.

"Mr Dentist...you lied to me. How come my sis only get ONE injection when she was wearing braces?."

The dentist told me to see him again on next monday(9th of october) at 10am. That will be the day he is going to put on braces for me. I guess I'm going to take only fluids after that. I know I'll be lazy to chew on food again with my 'gigi' like that. I'll upload pictures of me in braces that time and blog about the process of it in the dental clinic...if I remember bout it..heahea~.

Till then, see you again..tata~ ^^

AM I REALLY CLEAN?


CLEAN POINTS:

[ ] You still like to make friends w/ your enemies
[x] You love your cellphone...[the kandungan]
[x] You have your own room...[meanwhile kakak took over d]
[ ] You like modelling
[x] You own a drawer
[x] You have a diary
[ ] You love slum books
[x] You have pictures of your friends (even the oldones)...[yarh..heahea~]
[x] You always clean your room
[ ] You love organizing stuff
[x] You cook your own food ( somtimes )
[x] You have sang infront of the class and they liked it...[ wa taktao they suka anot leh]
[ ] You're always confident
[x] You make sure you don't forget anything for school ( hahah!)
[x] You automatically wake up for school
[ ] You always clean your house
[ ] You love reading books
[x] People tell you that you're a silent type ofperson
[ ] Your teacher gives you good grades even when you get a failing grade
[ ] You always have an award/honor
[ ] You hate dogs
[x] You love comedy movies...[it makes wa laugh]
[ ] You like your hair
[x] You love your parents
[x] You're in a group
[x] You're always early for school
[ ] You don't use the computer when there's an exam
[x] You love friendster...[wa like it not love =p]

TOTAL X's: 48
Multiply the total X's by 3


MESSY POINTS:

[x] You're lazy in studying...[wa admit]
[ ] You like rock music
[ ] You're parents (or anybody) still wakes you up for school
[ ] You wanna kill your enemies
[ ] Your room is dirty
[ ] You don't wash the dishes after you eat
[x] You surf the net everyday even though there's an exam
[ ] You haven't been an honor student ever since
[ ] You hate class
[x] You love tigers/snakes...[wa love tigger]
[ ] You tease your teachers infront of them (or when not looking)
[x] You say bad words
[ ] You're always late for school
[ ] You love the color grey
[ ] You wanna run away from your house
[ ] You wanna make friends with beautiful people
[ ] You make sure your friends are rich
[ ] People like you for your looks
[ ] You never smile
[ ] You throw stuff at people who teases you
[x] You make faces when yourprincipal/teacher/parents warns you
[ ] You hate cleaning

TOTAL X's: 17
Multiply the total X's by 3 and add 2


What if I'm clean or dirty? I'm still me =p

IS THAT MY TRUE PERSONALITIES?

: You are a passionate :
: caring, and unique person :
: You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals :
: You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily :
: Your heart tends to rule you :
: You can't make decisions without considering feelings :
: You seek out other empathetic people to befriend :
: Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships :
: In love, you give everything you have to relationships :
: You fall in love easily :
: At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career :
: With others, you communicate well :
: You can spend all night talking with someone :
: As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style :
: On weekends, you like to be with others :
: Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours :

http://www.blogthings.com/threequestionpersonalitytest/


What do you guys/girls think of mine? Is it accurate? True bout me?

THOSE WERE THE DAYS~

Sometimes, I'll think back of my past..all the happiness and sadness that I've gone through with some people. They were my friends, my family. I had shared many sweet moments with many different people. I had also shed tears with certain people. Through out the journey of my life, I experienced different taste of life-

Ini budak sesat fr the picture above.

That was during the time when i was about to depart to serve for NS. That was the moment where I truely learned the meaning of friendship. I never knew I'll miss them terribly. We shared happiness and sadness together. They were my good friends. That night was the 1st time I cried because of the separation we were going to face. You'll never know how the feelings is til you're about to separate. I was touched when my friends went to visit me in the hospital when I was admitted into it. That time I was thinking.. 'Will I get to stand on my own and walk out to my friends out there to thank them for being concerned?' ... 'Will I have the chance to have fun with them again?' ... 'Will I have the chance to take care of my parent?'. That moment I cried. My mom came to take care of me everynight while my dad took over on da day. That was the 1st time I realised how much they cared for me..how much they loved me. Care more bout your parents before you lose them. Care for your friends and know who really cares bout you before they walks out from your life.

Many things had changed since al of us departed for college life at different places. Some were homesick, some miss ipoh's food, some miss the people in ipoh and etc. I thought college life was fun

*Thinking*

There were sadness in me too after I started college life. I also miss many things back there in ipoh. The people, my family, my friends, my dearr, my doggie, my fishes, my aircond room. I know some of you out there also missing someone. I know there is someone in your heart where you couldn't forget about. Sometimes, I'll ask myself..'Could i forget the past?'... 'Could I just don't care bout all the memories I had with them?'.

I don't have a picture of me crying so I put this.

Honest speaking, I'm sure all of you can't just let go like that. I'm sure some of you shed some tears too when you really think of those memories. Memories together will always be in my heart no matter that person is still there or not. We might not be able to keep that person to ourself forever but we could keep their image and the memories we had together with us forever. When you lose someone, do not be sad. The person wouldn't want to see us unhappy. Be proud that you had moments and memories with them before these. Some of you will think that i'm stupid posting this kind of blog.

Suddenly, I missed my grandpa. It had been three years since the day he left me. He would buy me ice-cream whenever I cried. Then, he would tell me to not to cry. Before he passed-away, he told me not to cry because he could not be with me anymore.

Grandpa said:

Do not cry my girl. I might not be able to be there for you any longer but my soul and the memories we had together will forever be with you in your heart. I could no longer buy you ice-creams when you cry. You're now a big girl. You must learn to take care of yourself. Many people worry and cares bout you.

I'm sorry my friends. I know I always asked for ice-cream from you all. To me, there is a meaning for the ice-cream. Some of you might think back of something or someone when you see something.

Is there anyone in your mind right now? Are you missing them? Sometimes, a simple greeting can show how much you still care for that someone. Let them know while they're still here to listen. Care for them as much as you want while they could still know bout it. You might say that you don't care. But... is it really true? You really don't miss them? You really don't care bout them anymore? All these... only you'll know. Ask yourself...'Is it true with what you said compare to the one in your mind?'.

When I was younger, I don't care about many things. I didn't know how the reality was. As I grow older, as I experienced more things in life, I began to realised many things. I realised how I really feel towards certain things or certain people. I learned to think carefully before making any final decision. I always regret after doing certain things without really thinking carefully. Did you experienced the same thing too?

*thinking again*

A decision will decide your next step. It will affect your future. Will you regret or not.. it all depends on your final decision. Sometimes, I wished I could be a lilGirl and never grow up. But, in reality, we're teenagers now. We have to learn to adapt to all the changes in life. Different things and different people will come into our life as we proceed.

Do you miss those days behind? Are you ready for the future?

The answers to all the questions lies deep in your heart. All you have to do is just sit back and think carefully. Real careful and you'll know what to do. Hope you'll found the answers to the questions you were guessing all these while.

This post might not be 'guan si' at all. But do think about it. =) All the best~

Kissing Language (yup, it's a language)

if a kiss is the Language of Love, then we have a lot to talk about it
...methods of Love....

-kiss on the ear------"i'm horny"
-kiss on the cheek----"we're friends"
-kiss on the hand-----"i adore you"
-kiss on the neck------"we belong together"
-kiss on the shoulder-----"i want you"
-kiss on the lips------------"i love you" or "i want you"
-holding hands--------"we can learn to love each other"
-a wink-------------------"Let's get it on"
-slap on the butt----"thats mine"
-playing with the ear----"i can't live without you"
-holding on tight----"don't let go"
-looking into each other's eyes-----"let's get romantic"
-pulling hair on head----"tell me you loveme"
-arms around the waist---"i love you too much tolet go"

=advice=

if you're kissing someone, close your eyes. it's not nice to stare...
close your eyes and you'll be able to feel the true feelings.

So,anyone of you out there who did any of those above?

EXAMS~OH nO~!!!!


It's 5.53am in the morning and I'm still awake. There are notes on MassComm subject scattered all over the table in the living room. There are 8 hours more and I'll be sitting in the exam hall, staring at the test paper with a blank mind.

I never like the exam period. It sarks alot to me. I've read all the important points in the notes but I still can't get all of it locked in my memory box.

HAaiihzz~!!!! Apa mao buat ni? Later I've to sit for this paper gar..hadjorjor~

I took a short nap earlier on, fr 3.40am to 4.30am. I'm supposed to feel energetic,right?! But then, I felt sleepy..sigh. Everyone is in their dreamland now and I'm here typing on my blog.

Ok..I is sarks! *sighing again*

How come my brain is not functioning as I wanted it to be? If only I have a smarter mind in brain. If only I'm a smart kid. If only I can memorize everything at one shot. If only I did more frequent revisions on my studies. If only I paid extra more attention in class. If only I did all the tutorial questions given by the lecturers.

HAaiihz~!!!! If only~

Now, at the wrong time, I'm beginning to regret. If only I was more hardworking and listened to all the naggings fr my housemates and friends whom were nagging me to study more and do more revisions.

It's 6.16am in the morning already. A blink of an eye and I'll be sitting in the exam hall, preparing to answer those questions which looks like aliens to me. Hmmmm....I shall continue to do my revision and try to insert all the notes that I've read into my 'chidunz' memory box. Hopefully I'll be able to score or at least pass this subject.

*worrying*

The power of fear is in my soul....*sigh*. Wish me all the best.

THINGS THAT I FEARED THE MOST~

[x] the dark...(i never like being in darkness alone)
[x] staying single....(wawa..i dunwana be lonely when no 1 is no longer around me)
[ ] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[x] giving birth...(is it super painful to give birth?)
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[X] heights...(yarh yarh,wa takut ketinggian)
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[x] spiders and/or other insects..(they annoy me)
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[x] being put to sleep (anesthesia)...(o.O what will they do to me?)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] water...(water spirit O.O)
[ ] the ocean
[x] pools...(being alone in it is scary)
[x] failure...(no 1 wants failure)
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[ ] thunder/lightning
[x] frogs/toads...(eww~)
[x] mice/rats...(=O)
[x] jumping from high places...(*pengsanz*)
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cemeteries
[x] clowns...(some have evil smile)
[ ] large crowds
[x] demons or evil...(erm..wa haven't meet one =p)
[x] crossing bridges...(what if it breaks into half?)
[x] death...(macam tidur aja but i still wana wake-up)
[x] Hell...(i never like that place)
[ ] Heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] being sexually assaulted
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibility...(wa taktao handle stuff well =p)
[x] doctors, including dentists..(i nvr like to meet them)
[x] tornadoes
[x] hurricanes
[x] being punished
[x] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[x] snakes
[x] sharks
[x] dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[x] ghosts...(hoho..i like casper =p)
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[x] fear
[x] being alone
[x] losing my friends
[x] being blind to things...(i still want to see my loved ones) ^^
[x] being deaf...(i can't live without music)
[x] growing up..(i wana remain as a lilgirl)
[x] being murdered in my sleep...(i still wana see the world)

=p Hurhur~
meanwhile i'll update like this first since i have no idea what else to type. Now you all know what i'm afraid of. So, please do not use those to scare me or else i'll haunt you...buohohoho~