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2007-04-21T06:23:00.000-07:00

KESEORANGAN DIRI

Today is a Saturday and I'm still here in Kampar when everyone else is back in Ipoh. Actually, I wanted to follow them go back Ipoh so I can sleep in my aircond room and eat my mom's cooking and =p meet that beansprout again though I've already met him yesterday. The reason I didn't want to follow them back to Ipoh because I have Tamadun exam on Monday from 9am to 11am. I know I can take my notes back to Ipoh to revise but there's a weakness in me and that is...I never take my notes back to Ipoh because I never get to concentrate in my studies when I'm in Ipoh =p hurhur! There's too much temptation in Ipoh that could make my mind and soul fly away from my body...ikiki!

It is so quiet here in Kampar without that 2 crazy girls which is sueSue and szeMin and that 2 sexually frustrated girls which is lsimz and lynn. I'm so lonely here without them being around. Although, only this afternoon they left me but I'm already missing them and their voices. It is too quiet here without you girls.

I walked out to the mini market and 7eleven earlier on to buy some stuff. When I walked out from the shop -.-" it was raining buffaloes and elephants. Why didn't the rain angel let me reach home only rain?..hadjorjor! I was smacking head and thinking how to go back. After awhile, I made up my mind and I decided to walk back to the apartment and I did XD wuakakaka! When I was walking halfway, thats when I noticed I was wearing white tee *smackHead* and it was raining heavily and I was walking in the rain. So, imagine what happened to my tee. I immediately took a shower after I reached home. I was soaked in rain water from top to toe. That's not only the unfortunate incident that happened to me. After bathing, I was so thirsty and decided to make cold lemon juice. While slicing the lemon which belong to szeMin -.-" I accidentally sliced my finger. I was like "How come my finger suddenly feel painful?". When I pressed all my fingers and one of it got blood oozing out only I know I injured my finger...pity my little finger.

Tamadun test is on Monday and I'm still not prepared yet *smackHead* why do we have to study Tamadun? Is it because we're not civilized enough? The whole book on Tamadun is nearly all about Islam *smackHead*. The tips we get from lecturer and other states students, nearly covers all the chapters in the book. My as well I read the whole book *sigh* what is this?!!!

It is getting more quiet as the sky becomes darker and the night approaching. Being alone is always not a very good idea. Tonight, my 2 dolphins shall accompany me...ikiki!

I shall continue revising my Tamadun notes now >.o

2007-04-18T06:58:00.000-07:00

EXAM SEASON

3rd semester's lectures and tutorials had ended today. Our college's exam season is here again and i'm here to say....'OH GOSH! NOT AGAIN?!!! Hadjorjorjor....apamacam ini? This semester i'll be sitting for 4 exam papers which is Tamadun, Mass Media & Society, Law and Drama. Let me explain to you how my exam timetable going to be.

23/4/07- Tamadun- 9am to 11am

27/4/07- Drama- 9am to 11am

28/4/07- Mass Media & society- 9am to 11am

5/5/07- Law- 2pm to 4pm

*shakeHead* my exam timetable is so not nice. I don't like it. My exam til 5th of May erh...hadjorjor! Suddenly, my mind is so blank now. I know I'm supposed to start my exam revision liao but somehow...hurhur...no idea what's in my mind at all. Recently, I looked alot like a zombieGirl...hadjorjor! After exam I must have a very good proper sleep liao...ikikiki~

kieOkie...my mind is really too blur to continue to blog here. I shall blog again next time *winkz*

2007-04-04T23:40:00.000-07:00

DONATION = GOOD DEED

Last week I went to donate my blood =p hurhur! Remember about me telling you all about me not going to donate my blood for quite some time due to insufficient blood in me? I don't wheather to call it fortunate or unfortunate on that day for me because that day I have enough blood to donate.

That is part of the blood donation process. My friend snapped those pictures because she was too free while waiting for me XD

=p In case you can't see clearly...there it is where the needle dicucuk into my veins. *Ouch* It was kinda painful when the nurse inject it into my vein.

^^ My blood is healthy. I have blood type A *YAYY*~!~! Donate blood can save other people's life. Therefore, so far, I had donated my blood about three times already. =) Hopefully there are really other souls/life out there that I get to save.

2007-03-27T10:49:00.000-07:00

NOT ENOUGH

As usual, me woke -up at 7.20am today than bathed then took my breakfast(oats drink) then followed sueSue and lsimz to college. Today my class started at 11am as usual until 1pm. While waiting for my class to start, I went to college's reading room to do my own revision first. While I was in the midst of my revision =p I fell asleep for about half an hour in the reading room. Then, there were a gang of guys who were so kind to wake me up with their remix of our national anthem..Negaraku *smackHead*.

After that, I went to canteen block to donate my blood. We have to take our blood test before we finally donate our blood into that big packet. So, there was this man who was in-charged of testing blood and he cucuk my middle finger then he pressed my finger to make the blood ooze out. Unfortunately, my blood doesn't want to come out. So, the man cucuk another hole on the same finger again and this time I'm being fortunate that the blood did ooze out. Then he took the blood and put it into a small bottle of blue liquid. The man told me..'Today you cannot donate blood lerh. The amount of blood in your body is only enough for yourself today.' He told me because my blood doesn't tenggelam into the blue liquid. He told me to donate again another day. So, I walked away without donating any blood.

When I was in class, my classmates told me not to donate my blood for some time because they afraid that other people have to donate their blood to me one day..wuakaka! So, I guess I won't be donating blood for quite a long time...i guess =p

This thursday I have to hand in my individual assignment and I still haven't complete it..hadjorjor! The lecturer told us to find a journal about Mass Media & Society and then summarize the journal and then typed out comments/recommendations of it and APA format of my article references and thats all..hand-in on thursday. My lecturer told me this individual assignment only have 10% marks so don't really have to do so perfect. But, I don't know how to summarize it erh..hadjor! Next week have to start group assignment and hand -in on the following week and the title of that assignment is...' Is advertising ethical?'. We must have at least 10 references for that..hadjorjor! This one have 15% marks.

Haihz...I wonder how am I going to complete my assignments.

2007-03-26T08:27:00.000-07:00

SOMEHOW~Suddenly me feel like posting this so...=) there it is up there for you all to read ^^ The girl cute or not? The message above meaningful or not? =) Hopefully you all really get the message stated up there *winkz* >.o

2007-03-21T10:46:00.000-07:00

MY DAYY~

As usual, today my class start at 10am until 12pm BUT unfortunately the lecturer last minute delayed the class to 11am til 1pm *smackHead* hadjorjor! If only she inform us earlier then i'll choose to wake up from bed later. Recently, my hormones bermasalah =p cuz out of the blue XD i'm turning into a hardworking girl...wuakaka! o.O Is there something wrong with me bout that? *scratchHead* i wonder...hmmmm.....

-.-" there's supposed to be a picture here *smackHead* but i forgot to upload into my laptop..hadjorjor!

So, my class today was from 11am til 1pm. My next class was tamadun Islam and Asia but lots of students sneaked out from the lecture hall during our 5 minutes break *shakeHead* me just only realised how rajin I've turned into =p me know me self-praising here...hurhur!

^^ For the first time, i joined my coursemates in their barbeque gathering at one of my classmate's house in the evening today. My friends picked me up from my place at 7.45pm and we left for our destination..huohuo!

There we are bbq-ing on a small bbq set XD wuakaka! There were sausages, big chickens, pasta, fishballs, crabballs, vegeballs, blackcurrent juice and gardenia bread ^^ i've learnt how to bbq gardenia bread spread with margerine and honey =) it was delicious

Look at that piece of bread ^^ my classmate khaiYan suggested the idea of bbq-ing bread to me and waiYan bbq-ed that for me and it really tasted yummy =) thanks to both of them. XD I also thank my friend eeZheng for showing me how to cucuk the bread properly so it won't fall into the fire while bbq-ing it =p sorry for splashing that pail of water on you...hurhur...i was just having fun.

Most of the time, only waiYan and edwan barbeque-ed those food for the rest while the rest were busy singing karaoke songs in the living room with both our lecturers Ms Anne and Ms Ivy. Ms Ivy told us something really funny bout our Law subject lecturer XD me will tell you in person if you remembered to ask me bout it.

Our gathering ended bout 11.50pm and we helped to clean up before we left. =) It was kinda fun to join my classmates too because i'll get to listen to lots of 8-ness =p....to tell you all the truth, all my classmates are the kinda unexpected people. I not dare to tell much here incase one of them visit my blog then i'll be dead chiachia =p ask me, i may tell.

Hmmmm....i guess thats all i have to blog about here. ^^ i'll try to blog bout more interesting stuff on my next update =) ikiki~!~!~!

2007-03-06T21:11:00.000-08:00

BORING-NESS

HYIUKhyiukhyiuk..!Finale...chiaChia has return XD wuakakaka~!!!!!! 2nd semester exam had finally ended and same goes to 2nd semester break. 3rd semester started three days ago and it was so rotting-ly boring. =p i know i have lots of grammar mistakes here...hurhur! I'm onlining in college internet lab now because unfortunately the internet at my apartment lot fall sick liao *shakeHead* poor thing...while cursing in mind *u cacat-ed internet...yish~*

XD I only have 2 subjects to study in 3rd sem which are Mass Media & Society and Tamadun Islam.

Monday - 10am-12am - MMS(L)
Tuesday - 11am-1pm - MMS(T)
Wednesday - 10am- 12pm - MMS(T), 3pm-5pm - TAM(L)
Thursday - 1pm-3pm - MMS(L)
Friday - 9am-11am - TAM(L)

Stated above is my 3rd semester timetable ^^ kiki~!!! *yawn* It's 1.25pm now and i'm feeling super sleepy T.T my next class at 3pm...apani?! Last night, suddenly I had terrible headache...sakit til tummy felt giddy and wanted to puke. Recently, my eyes gets weak and felt tired easily *shakeHead* no good at all. I guess cuz my body lacks of vitamines. Last 2 semester ago =p I've been very lazy to eat vitamines..hurhur! Don't worry yet XD cuz I've started to eat it again ^^ kiki!

*yawn* facing the comp so much makes me feel tired. *waving* cyaz my friend ^^ i cabut dulu. Update you all again in my next update ^^ takeCare~

2007-02-08T04:08:00.000-08:00

sadSADsad~

*Sigh* Today, Lynn went back to Ipoh as well. She was the one and only companion to me since tuesday. Suesue, Lsimz and szemin left Kampar right after their last exam paper on tuesday. This afternoon...T.T my only companion left me too *sobSob* I'm feeling so lonely over here in Kampar. So many empty parking space at our apartment lot. I can only see six vehicles here. Imagine how quiet and empty it is over here. T.T Why you all don't accompany me here? It is so scary for me as a girl being lonely over here. I feel so...soSO....soSosoSoso......HUNGRY~!!!!!!!!! It's raining cats and dogs here and there's no left over food in the apartment here for me to eat. I am starving~!!!!!

Today, I stayed back in college til 6pm to STUDY. Can you believe that? chiaChia is studying for her exam. Honestly, =p actually I don't believe it also because I'll rather sleep most of the time..heaHea...ask those who know me and you'll know too. This semester is the first time I join in my classmates for group revision and they did help me alot. Hopefully I can at least pass all my exam papers. I don't care what grade I'll have but I'm praying hard for me to pass all exam papers and I'm serious about it. Maybe I'm not as hardworking as the rest of my housemates, but I can tell you that I'm trying my very best here. Hopefully GOD will bless me with good results that I'll feel happy about it.

Hmmm....tomorrow I'll sit for my last exam paper for 2nd semester which is the Public Relation paper. XD My classmates named this paper as Power Ranger paper...hueHue...I also don't know why. Tomorrow my paper from 2pm-4pm and XD finally I'll be able to join the rest of my collegemates to enjoy freedom too....YAAaaayyyyyy....ikiKIki~!!!!! Finally ^^ tomorrow I can return back to Ipoh too...heaHea! There will gonna be the return of chiaChia...ikiKIki~!!!!!!!!!!

There is soSOsoSOsoSOsooooo.....many things I want to do when I'm back. Til then *chiaChia waving* cya people in Ipoh oh ^^

2007-01-29T21:29:00.000-08:00

JING JING DI [silently]

Recently, since the taiwan drama...Silence was aired in TV, our whole housemates have been singing/listening to this song nearly everyday. ^^ I'm one of them too though i know I don't have a sweet voice to be a singer, I just don't know why i'll sing along with the music when the song was played and of course when there was no one around. Recently, i'm just in the mood of this song.

Below is the lyric of that song i told you just now.

Kong qi li dou zhe shen me
You dian lang man de xin dong
Wo tou tou kan ni
Ni ye tou tou kan wo
Shi jie shang duo le shen me
Hao xiang bian de hen bu tong
Zhan zai ni shen bian
Zhe yi qie dou hao kuan guo

*Wo hai zai deng zhe ni
Jing jing de ai wo
Zhi yao you ni pei wo
Jing jing de zou ju gou
Ni ye zai deng zhe wo
Jing jing de wen rou
Jiu zhe yang shou qian shou
Jing jing de kan zhe tian kong

Xin li mian chang zhe shen me
Ni zhi xiang yao rang wo dong
Yuan lai wo de meng
Ye jiu shi ni de meng
Zhi tiao shang xie le shen me
Wo hao xiang yao zi ni shuo
Rang zi zi ju ju
Cong mang wo men de xiao rong

Repeat *

Yong yuan yao ji de
Na tian bi ci xu xia de ceng nuo
Xun jian dian liang de huo hua
Shi wo men de yang you

Repeat *

Jing jing de shou qian shou
Shi zui jian dan de meng

To me, this song just touched my heart in a way. Maybe it does not touch you but it did to mine and i =)

2007-01-29T06:18:00.000-08:00

UN-HAPPINESS

Two papers had passed... FIVE papers more to sit for T.T why am I the last one to leave Kampar? Why Oh Why? Kenapa larh ini berlaku pada diri ku? Tomorrow my room-mate(lsimz..that bamBam), sueSue and szeMin gonna return to Ipoh after their 2pm-4pm BIS paper. They will only return again on the 3rd and 6th of February. They are not going to overnight in Kampar on that two days. They will immediately return to Ipoh again after their exam papers. *sobSob* left chuilynn and I here only. The house is so quiet and empty without those three musketeers. It's extra scary and extra quiet at night...Oh No~!!! The three girls can be free from exam on the 6th of February, Chuilynn on the 8th and me is the last one to return to Ipoh..wehWEHweh~!!!!!

I'm feeling unhappy each passing day. I'm waiting to fly back to Ipoh again. I feel so...miss Ipoh...my hometown beneath all the twinkling stars above. Why lerh my exam papers have to skip so many days? I prefer to have it on alternate days then quickly merdeka erh. sadSAdsad...so sad! My head is getting heavier each day though that bamBam's head more berat than mine. I feel like standing on the window sill in my room here and shout my heart out to the world out there. ^^ I know a good place in Ipoh where I can do that too and that place is much higher than here.

There's so many things I wana do and I guess I'm gonna do it after exam. I'm waiting for my exam days to pass so i can leave this not so happy place. Hopefully i'll be back in Ipoh in one piece...safe and sound. That bamBam killed my guardian angel...white butterfly. That rama-rama took care of me for two days when the rest were not around. *smackHead* she killed it and made a little burial for it in the toilet bowl then she flushed it away.

Oh...my white guardian angel, please forgive that bamBam. She's just...erm...evil toward you but she's kind toward me. She'll takeCare of me but will not be my guardian angel. So, you don't have to worry bout me too much. May you rest in peace....my white guardian angel who got flushed down the toilet bowl.

So, bamBam...I know you're reading this. Please do not kill another butterfly when you see it again. They are as innocent as 'you' (cross finger) do.

As a reminder, do not sepak me down from the bed after you read this..iyorhIyorh~!!!! ^^

2007-01-26T05:23:00.000-08:00

EXAM SEASON

Yesterday was the first day of our exam which is 25th January 2007...ENGLISH PAPER~!!!!! My exam venue was at the library block..D109. The first thing I went into the hall, I find the last seat under my course then sat on it. I duduk paling belakang and I was shivering, nearly pengsan kesejukan. =p I didn't take my sweater along...kieOkie..my fault and padan muka me. When I start to do the second part of the paper, IYARK...headache struck me. Out of nowhere, my head was aching. Maybe because it was too cold and I was attacked with brain freeze. 5 minutes left and I still couldn't think of the answer for the last question on the last part of the paper. *smackHead smackHead* I was smacking my head because there was no water for me to sprinkle..heaHeahea *ahem* =p so mm guan si tim. Then, I began to make a flashback bout me and...(name is confidential). Suddenly, out of nowhere again, the answer for the last question popped-up in my mind and I was WIKIKIKIKI ^^ jumping joyfully in my mind..kiKiki!!!!

During the night, I did some revision again AND....I had a friend with me. This friend of mine is also your friend and a good one indeed.

recognise her? ^^ She's the one and only...MOI LING SIM!!!!!!!

She's unique..buohohoho! Just look at the way she study...creative leh?! Actually, she was squatting at the balcony and study geh. Unfortunately, she saw a dead little lizard being eaten by ants and there were weird noises from the mamak stall opposite our apartment therefore she decided to shift back into the living room and have her revision with me. ^^ I had a company..kikikiki~!!!!!

oOpszie..little linggi shyShy d.

Hmmmm....I wonder why she's so shy over here when she kinda often snaps her own pictures by herself. If you all want to know her more, heaHeahea...I'm sure you all have her msn,friendster and contact number. You all can always learnt to do your revision in a creative style like our little linggi here.

XD sorry little linggi! I'm too free so decided to update this...buohohohoho~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-25T04:45:00.000-08:00

I'M SORRY =(

I'm sorry to you~

I'm truely sorry to my friend whose picture is above...LEE SENG FOO. I've been a badGirl to him recently and a really stubborn friend when he gave me advice. I didn't want to follow lingsim's style of saying sorry..(the 1000 words) so I decided to do it this way instead.

Minta maaf kawan ku. I'd rather you scold me right in my face than giving me silent treatment. I'll wait til your temper decrease.

I'll be waiting right here for you to beng me =) cuz I know I did wrongly this time.

2007-01-22T20:09:00.000-08:00

EXAM....HAOSI...PEPERIKSAAN

Oh no...hari kiamat ku sudah menjelang. The season when influenza attack wa. That's the symtom that tells wa...EXAM IS HERE and it's attacking the inner wa. TARC's final exam season is from 25th January 07- 10th February 07.

25th Jan 07 - ENGLISH - 2pm to 4pm

27th Jan 07 - KB2 - 9am to 11am

31st Jan 07 - E-PUBLISHING - 2pm to 4pm

2nd Feb 07 - LAW - 2pm to 4pm

7th Feb 07 - DRAMA - 2pm to 4pm

8th Feb 07 - IT(resit) - 2pm to 4pm

9th Feb 07 - PUBLIC RELATION - 2pm to 4pm

Hadjorjorjor~!!!!!!!!!!

Apasal inimacam? Haihz... the bluish wordings above is wa's course's exam timetable. T.T Compare to wa's housemates exam timetable, my exam period is the longest and wa is the last one to return to Ipoh...hadjorjorjor~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*shakeHead*

2007-01-17T07:14:00.000-08:00

T.T WHY,KENAPA...?

What can you really see in her?

As usual, I sure have flu during exam season. Every year also the same...hadjorjor~!!!!! BUT....why this year my flu brought a friend along? Flu brought sadness into me. I don't like this feelings. I don't like the friend of flu. Sadness is evil-ish~!!! It takes my tears away from my body.

Exam coming liao...25th January - 10th February. My exam date is on the 25th, 27th, 31st, 2nd, 7th, 8th and 9th. This round I totally have no confidence on this final exam at all. I've thought of giving up and start a new life somewhere where no one knows me. But..asking myself...where can I go? Without proper education, I'll end up as nothing in the society. My friends all coping and catching up with their own studies and life and I'm hear...total blur..in total sadness. Somewhere inside me..tears trickling. I don't want to fail? I want to pass all my exam papers. At least I want to graduate from diploma and get a job out there with that certificate. Suddenly..sadness filling-up my body. I want a bearHug now. I want a star. I want my luckyStar.

Why I have to be like this? Why am I like this? Why GOD made me inimacam? Why am I a weak girl? Why am I so easily emotional? How come I'm not like the other strong people out there? They can face their life and hold on tightly to their fate.

Me?? *shakeHead* I'm weak inside and out. I only know how to cakap but not once I've fulfilled what I said.

*tears trickling inside my heart*

2007-01-11T00:59:00.000-08:00

HOROSCOPES~

SCORPIO
.Can be mean.
.EXTREMELY sexy
.Intelligent
.Energetic
.Predict future
.Most erotic>(Freak in bed.)>(GREAT kisser.)
.Always get what they want
.Sexy
.Attractive
.Easy going
.Loves being in long relationships
.Talkative
.The sexiest ever....>Romantic.>Caring

LIBRA
.Very pretty
.Very romantic
.Nice to everyone they meet
.Their Love is one of a kind
.Silly, fun and sweet
.Have own unique sexiness
.Most caring person you will ever meet!
.Amazing n Bed..!!!>Did I say Amazing in Bed?
.not the kind of person you wanna ........ with cause u might end up crying
.the most irresistible

ARIES
.Outgoing
.lovable
.Spontanious
.Not one to ........ with. cause u might end up in a wheelchair
.Erotic
.Funny.
.Take you on trips to the moon in bed
.excellent kisser
.EXTREMELY sexy
.Loves being in long relationships.=)
.Addictive
.best in bed

AQUARIUS
.Trustworthy
.Sexy
.Great kisser
.One of a kind
.Loves being in long-term relationships
.Extremely energetic
.unpredictable
.will exceed your expectations
.Not a Fighter, But will Knock yourl ights out
.Amazing in bed
.THE BEST LOVERS BETTERTHAN EVERYONE!

GEMINI
.Nice
.Love is one of a kind
.Great listeners
.VERY GOOD IN BED!!!
.Lover not a fighter, but will still punch your lights out
.Trustworthy
.Always happy
.Loud
.Talkative
.Outgoing
.Very forgiving
.Loves to make out
.Has a beautiful smile
.Generous
.Strong

LEO
.Great talker
.Sexy and passionate
.Laid back
.Knows how to have fun
.Is really good at kissing
.Unpredictable
.Outgoing
.Down to earth
.Addictive
.Attractive
.Loud
.Loves being in long relationships
.Talkative
.Not one to mess with
.Rare to find
.Good when found

CANCER
.Most amazing kisser
.Very high sex appeal
.Beautiful smile
.Love is one of a kind
.Loves being in long relationships
.Rare to find,easy to lose if you're not careful!
.Lovable
.Most caring person you will ever meet!
.Entirely creative
.Random and proud of it
.Sweet personality
.Great listener

PISCES
.Caring and kind
.Smart
.Center of attention
.Too Sexy
.Very high sex appeal
.The best to find, hardest to keep
.Fun to be around
.Freak in the sheets
.Extremely weird but in a good way
.Super good in bed
.Good Sense of Humor!!!
.Thoughtful
.A partner for life

CAPRICORN
.Nice
.Sassy
.Intelligent
.Sexy
.Predict future
.Irrestible, awes0me kisser
.Loves being in long relationships
.Great talker
.Always gets what he or she wants
.BY FAR the BEST in BED
.Very sexy
.Coolest
.Loves to own Gemini's in sports
.very funny
.loves to joke
.Loves to be your first...so u'll never forget

TAURUS
.Aggressive
.Freak in bed
.Rare to find!
.Loves being in long relationships
.Likes to give a good fight for what they want
.Extremely outgoing
.Sexy as ........Very popular and Outstanding kisser
.Very funny
.Awesome personality
.Most caring person you will ever meet!
.One of a kind
.Not one to ........ with
Are the most sexiest people on earth!

VIRGO
.Dominant in relationships
.Sexy
.someone loves them right now
.Freak in bed
.Always wants the last word
.Caring.>Smart.>Addictive.>Attractive.>Loud.>Loyal.>Easy to talk to
.Hard to forget

SAGITTARIUS
.Spontaneous
.Freak in Bed
.High sex appeal
.Rare to find
.Great when found
.So much love to give
.Not one to mess with
.Very romantic
.Nice to everyone they meet
.Silly, fun and sweet

buakakaka~ you guys/girls check it out yourselves.
Wa comment-less bout it =p

2006-12-06T08:20:00.000-08:00

ARIES...HOROSCOPE KU~

Zodiac sign begins with Aries. It is the very first sign. Ram is the symbol of Aries. It represents courage. Aries signifies the beginning or dawn. It is also known as season of spring. It is also famous as pioneer or warrior. Aries is also known as House of Self.

The positive features of Aries are adventurous, confident, dynamic, freedom and courageous.
The negative features of Aries are short-temper, impatient, undiplomatic and self-centered.
People born under Aries like action, challenge and spontaneity. Aries usually have a disliking for failure, tyranny and waiting.

Aries Female
Aries female love challenges. Aries female loves making intelligent friends. They are hard to dominate. Love is not the ultimate destination of Aries female. She can also live without partner.
Aries female will be a great wife for ambitious male. Aries female have a usual liking for well-mannered, cultured and educated men. Jealousy one of the major negative traits of Aries female. Aries females are known for their great will power and confidence.Love Life of Aries is Charming and loving nature of Aries is always admired by opposite sex. Aries have a passionate nature and love intensely. Expressing love is quite tough for them. Passion, fun, devotion and protection are a few major positive features of Aries in love.

On the other hand, fickle-mind, ego, jealousy and possessiveness are major negative features of Aries in love.

Physical Appearance of Aries
Aries have usually broad shoulders and are tall. They are quite strong have great built and elongated face. Forehead of Aries is quite prominent. It is quite high, prominent and round.
Complexion of Aries is usually fair and having sandy colored hair. Aries natives are also short and have robust built. They have dark hair and have open pored complexion. Aries are usually charming, noble and attractive. They have a sympathetic and warm heart.

Given below are a few significant lucky charms of Aries.
Lucky Number: 9
Lucky Color: Crimson or Deep red
Lucky Flower: Geranium
Lucky Day: Tuesday
Lucky Gemstones: Ruby, Garnet, Amethyst and Topaz.
Lucky Metal: Iron

2006-11-24T06:08:00.000-08:00

SATURDAY CLASS SUXX~

Do you know why I dislike Saturday's class? The reason is.. because I'm all alone in this apartment I'm staying in Kampar. All my housemate who are staying here with me, will be back in ipoh on friday. Their classes until friday only. Most of the students here leave kampar on friday. So, you can see that there will be not many cars here after friday noon.

Sueling and Lingsim went back yesterday because they don't have classes til next monday again. Today, Szemin went back to ipoh also. Fortunately, ^^ Chuilynn have presentation tomorrow while Livann have presentation on Sunday..pity Livann alone in Kampar. This week, I have two friends to accompany me...ikikiki~!!! Next week onwards, wa's saturday class will change to Friday night...7pm-9pm...wikikiki~!!! Wa don't have to be in Kampar alone again..heahea~!!!

2006-11-15T09:16:00.000-08:00

1 LITRE OF TEARS~

This dorama is about a girl who was diagnosed with a disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration when she was 15 years old, and was able to continue her life until her death at the age of 25 years old.

The plot is based on the true story of a Japanese girl named Kito Aya, who had the same disease. She kept writing in her diary to remember her experiences until she could no longer hold a pen. Aya simply wished to live until the end of her life, and the purpose of writing in the diary was to remind herself to not give up. She shed tears many times, at the same time encompassed by the rich love and support from her family, friends, and boyfriend. Her diary “1 Litre of Tears” was published after her death, because of its inspiring and courageous message of, “Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.” So far, over 18,000,000 copies of her diary have been sold.

This dorama features Sawajiri Erika, Nishikido Ryou, Narumi Riko, Yakushimaru Hiroko, Jinnai Takanori and Fujiki Naohito. Sawajiri Erika has powerfully brought out the character of Aya, and people who watch this dorama will feel compassion for her while she suffers from the illness. My tears flowed after almost every episode as I questioned myself, “What would I do if I were Aya?” This is a dorama where you can see a 15 year old young girl who was able to face her disease bravely, and tried her best to treasure the time she spent with her friends, family and boyfriend everyday she could.

To me, this was one of the best doramas of 2005, mainly because the reality of this story has enlightened me. I realized that my life is not that tough compared to those who are suffering from an incurable disease. “1 Litre of Tears” stood out for a reason: it is not because Aya was upset because of her disease, she was touched by the love and patience she received from her friends and family. I was amazed by the braveness with which she chose to live her life, as a strong girl who was only 15 years old, yet managed to face her cruel fate with a positive outlook, and tried her best to do whatever she could by herself.

This dorama starts right before Aya is confronted with the illness, Spinocerebellar Degeneration, in which the nerve cells of areas necessary for the human body to move and balance–including the cerebellum, brain stem, and spinal cord–transform and eventually disappear.

Ikeuchi Aya (Sawajiri Erika), a 15 year old girl, is the eldest daughter in a normal Japanese family. She lives with her reliable mother, Shioka, who works as a nutritionist, her father, Mizuo, the wacky owner of a tofu shop, her quiet younger brother, Hiroki, and two younger sisters, the sarcastic Ako and innocent Rika. On the day of her high school entrance exam, she left the house full of energy, but she missed her stop to get off the bus and walk to her high school because she fell asleep. She quickly got off and ran from the bus in the rain when she discovered she was late. She slipped, fell down and injured her knee. At that time, she met Haruto Aso, who was trying to skip the exam. He gave her a ride to school, the administrators allowed them to take the exam (despite the fact that Haruto was uninterested in taking it), which they both later passed.

The new semester began, Aya and Haruto were in the same class, and both were elected as the representative of their class. Aya also joined the basketball team, and was reunited with the boy who she was fond of from the male basketball team. Just as she was beginning to enjoy her high school days, Aya starts to experience some physical difficulties. She always dropped food from her chopsticks, could not estimate the distance of the objects in front of her, could not pour water into a cup without spilling it, and occasionally wobbled while walking. Her mother, Shioka, who was the only one to notice the physical changes in Aya, started to worry about what was going on.

One day, Aya’s life started to change after she tripped and fell. She couldn’t protect herself with her hands while falling and she hurt her face. After this, her illness is slowly revealed and her tragedy begins…

How would you be if you couldn't walk freely anymore?
How would you be if you couldn't talk anymore?
How would you be if you couldn't move anymore?
How would you be if you're aware of anything around you, but you can't to anything?

The people around you sees that you're slowly getting more and more sick every day..the pain to see..the tears you'll cry.. the sickness is progressing slowly, but it definitely continueing...

What will you do if you were 1 of them?Will you give-up just like that or be like Aya?

After watching this drama, it reminds me of the days I used to spent in the hospital. I remember those feelings when my family came to take care of me day and night and the moments where my friends went to visit me too. My parent and relatives tried their best to find out bout the causes that made me couldn't move my legs or walk around. That time, the doctor said that my the disease I had is rare. There is no proper medication for my illness unless there's miracle that I could walk again. I had to undergo physiotherapy everyday. The doctor even did electric shock kinda therapy to check the nerve. He told my parent that I have to take some fluid out of my tulang sumsum part to check more. He said it's gonna be very painful. I was scared. I didn't want that on me. I prayed day and night in my heart that GOD would let me walk again and thank GOD he did it. Now, I'm walking and jumping around again. I was so happy. The day I was discharged from hospital, the doctor told me to takeCare because that disease will attack me again. The only thing is, he don't know when.

By the way, I don't care much bout those anymore. I believe that the disease has totally left me and never gona attack me again. Here I am blogging and doing whatever I am doing now. When I walked out of that hospital that day, I told myself that I never gona admit into hospital at a young age like this again.

You all might think that what I had typed here is so lame. But..to me, that incident was a memorable one. I will forever remember how my family and friends came to visit me and truely cared bout me.

Back to the story bout 1 litre of tears..Kitou Aya passed away on the 23rd of May 1988.

I agree with the message she left for all before her last breath...

“Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.”

2006-11-10T05:32:00.000-08:00

SHOOTING STAR

ARTIST: RYOSUKE NERIKI

nagareboshi ga yokogiru
tsukanoma no shizukesa ni
sora ni nobasu yubisaki
todoku wake nai takasugite

itanda kokoro wasureta furi shite
arukitsuzukete wa iru keredo
motometeta no wa kieta maboroshi to
ki ga tsuite ita yo

hateshinaku susunde mo
otoseya shinai yo
setsunasa ga kono karada
shihai suru

kanashimi o omoide ni
kaereya shinai yo
okubyou o kono mune ga
kakaeteru

negau koto ga hoshi ni
mitsukaranai no wa
kanaeru mono wa jibun to
wakarisugiterute

ni wa dekinu mono nara
kagayaki o tomete kure
yoru no kage ni kakurete
wazuka na hikari dake de ii

toritsukurotte kizu fukamete iru
hiyowa na kimochi o moteamasu
sagashiteru no wa yume no zangai to
akiramete ita yo

atedonaku hashitte mo
ikitsukya shinai yo
tebanashita yasuragi ga
oikakeru

mezameru no kowakutte
nemureya shinai yo
itsu made mo yasashisa ni
najimenai

nagareboshi ga hitotsu
mata hashirinukeru
hakanai mono wa
jibun to wakarisugiteru

itanda kokoro wasureta furi shite
arukitsuzukete wa iru keredo
motometeta no wa kieta maboroshi to
ki ga tsuite ita yo

hateshinaku susunde mo
otoseya shinai yo
setsunasa ga kono karada
shihai suru

kanashimi o omoide ni
kaereya shinai yo
okubyou o kono mune ga
kakaeteru

atedonaku hashitte mo
ikitsukya shinai yo
tebanashita yasuragi ga
oikakeru

mezameru no kowakutte
nemureya shinai yo
itsu made mo yasashisa ni
najimenai

nagareboshi ga hitotsu
mata hashirinukeru
hakanai mono wa
jibun to wakarisugiteru

watashiwa too free and found that the title of the song is wa's favourite. So, wa decided to post it ^^
Unfortunately, wa tried to download the song, but failed. Anyone out there who is willing to help wa get the song then send to wa, wa will be super happy ^^ ikikiki~

2006-10-12T21:53:00.000-07:00

THE 'LIMA' THINGS~

5 things wa want to do after final exam...

1~ tidur secukupnya
2~ spent time with family
3~ spent time with friends
4~ makan scrumptious food
5~ spent time with my dearr ^^

5 persons or things that wa miss the most...

1~ wa's family
2~ lama tak jumpa punya kawan
3~ susah mao jumpa punya dearr
4~ delicious food
5~ stars in the sky

5 crazy stuffs wa want to do during my coming semester break...

1~ stuff that wa not dare to do o.O
2 - 5~ taktao lagi

5 happenings during the weekends...

1~ yumchar
2~ kacau pple
3~ shopping
4~ cuci muka??
5~ lompat sini sana

5 most wanted things on my pc list...

1~ webcam??
2~ new pc [ini mao breakdown again]
3~ lebih lembut punya keyboard [is there such thing?]
4 - 5~ taktao lagi [wa not good in pc stuff =p ]

5 lengzhais/lengluis wa have met so far in college...

1 - 5~ only wa know ...buakakakaka~

5 things wa hate about exam...

1~ hafal-ing
2~ pimples
3~ tak cukup sleep
4~ stress
5~ panda eyes

5 things to do if wa have a car...

1~ decorate the inner according to wa punya suka
2~ take very good care of it
3~ drive out whenever wa suka to pple hse to kacau pple [since wa is the 1 who goona pay for petrol ]
4~ drive friends out since they fetch wa around kinda often before that.
5~ dunno

5 people wa tag...

1~ lingsim 2~ szemin 3~ sengfoo 4~munben 5~ thianhoe

2006-10-10T07:35:00.000-07:00

BORED~

1 week left and 2nd semester going to start. Looking back of the sem break, I noticed that I didn't do anything and had wasted the time I had. I planned to swim, remember? Unfortunately, dad don't let me go...sigh! I'm bored and don't what else to do.

In the meantime, there is also something in my mind. In fact, there's a few thing in my mind which I've been thinking about for the past few weeks. 1 of it is about my exam results. I'm totally worried about it. Do not say that I have no confident in myself. I've been sitting for many exams since primary school and I know my standard and level of intelligence.

The other few more things which were playing in my mind, ^^ I don't plan to tell out here. By the way, those were histories. 1 thing for sure is, ofcourse I'm feeling scared bout it and still feeling so. Nevermind, I was just kind of expressing my thoughts here..hurhur~.

Today is tuesday and there's only 4 days left before I returm to Kampar. o.O suddenly I realised that there will be lots of stuff to shift back to Kampar on Sunday. Many things to arrange again..hadjorjor~. Back in Kampar that time, I'll eat less and drink more plain water. You know why I plan to do so? The reason is...

I'M LAZY TO BRUSH MY 'GIGI' SO MANY TIMES~!!!!!!!!!!

It's still painful when I brush my teeth. Each time, after I had my meal, I have to 'berus' my 'gigi'. So, I'd rather eat less and take in lots of plain water instead. Actually, I miss the tastes of many kind of food. There's so many food that I want to chew and taste it like I used to do before.

*sobSob*~

When will my teeth won't feel this painful anymore? It's kinda suffering looking at others chew their delicious food while I could only chew on soft food.

WAWAwuwuwowo.....~

I'm bored and can't think of any interesting thing to do.

*bang on wall again*

2006-10-09T09:06:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDAUNT~

Yesterday was my grandaunt's birthday. This post was supposed to be updated last night. Unfortunately, while I was half way typing this blog, I accidentally clicked on the 'power' button and the PC shut down. These had happened a few times already due to my carelessness (is there such a word?).

The birthday grandaunt which I don't know how old is she =p

We celebrated grandaunt's birthday at Menglembu's East Ocean Restaurant. The dish I likes the most was the lamb meat. I had that with a few sips of wine which actually turns out to be a few glasses of wine. My granduncle said it's good for blood circulation and made me drank a few glasses of it.

Dad and I after a few glasses of wine

Dad said my face always looks pale and blood-less. Recently, he made sure the family has at least a glass of wine during dinner. He said it's good for the skin complexion. Sometimes I wonder wheather is he training us with alcohol so we won't easily drunk when we drink with other people. Thinking bout that, it's not a bad thing either.

The blood is still circulating in me.

One thing for sure is that I cannot wear sleeveless top when I drink alcohol. This is because, the redness in me which is the blood circulating is obvious beneath my skin. There was once I wore a sleeveless top to a dinner and I took in alot of alcohol. After that, I noticed that my shoulder and back was so red. It's like the kind of allergic skin but I did not feel itchy.

Me in braces ='(

Can you see the sudden changes in me? That is me in braces. Mr Dentist put that on me, today. Earlier on, it was not painful. After I had a short nap, the pain woke me up. Out of a sudden, I felt so painful and still feeling it now. Can you spot the 'senget' teeth in my mouth? That's the reason all of the people in my family made me wear braces. They said my smile will look nicer after my 'gigi tersusun baik'. So, I have to bare with the pain for 2 years. I want to have a better and nicer 'gigi' and a smile, therefore I have to be patient.

The me before I put on braces.

Sigh~. It's so unlucky for me to not have a nice and neat row of 'gigi' since the day my 'gigi susu' were extracted. 'Akibatnya', I'm wearing that steel thing in my mouth now. Suddenly, I can't wait for the day when I don't have to wear braces anymore. It's painful and I couldn't chew anything now. I can only swallow and drink for the meantime.

*Haihz.....~*

2006-10-03T21:55:00.001-07:00

ROTTING SEASON~

2nd sem starting on the 15th of october. Meanwhile, I'm rotting til 'sot' already. Sometimes, I wish that college can start soon so I don't have to rot like this.. [look below]

Rotting til bang on the beautiful wall of mine XD

Unfortunately, I couldn't join Suesue, chingz and etc along to genting. If not, I'll be having fun in the cold atmosphere up there with them. I want to go for a trip with friends again rather than rotting like that. I miss so many things and so many people..hadjor~

By the way, the dentist extracted 2 of my 'gigi' and I'm kind of 'gigi'-less now. The dentist shot my 'lelangit' with 6 injections. The feeling of numb was there til it went to my forehead..hadjorjor~.
Now, I can only chew on soft food and I eat kind of slow if the food takes a longer time to chew.

Gigi ku yang tengah berdarah~

Look how pityful am I recently...hadjorjorjor~. I ate so slow til by the time I finish my meal, I'm hungry again. This is because my digestion is working fast on my slow swallow. There are so many kind of food I want to eat but I'm not allowed to. All because of my 'gigi'...haihz!

Before the dentist extract my 'gigi', he made a mould to get the shape of my teeth. Then, he took two x-rays of my 'gigi' to make sure there's no broken bone or jaw and etc. After that, he told me to wait outside awhile while he attent to some other patients. After a few minutes, the nurse called me in again. The dentist told me that he was going to give me "an" injection which turns out to be SIX injections. He said that it's only like an ant bite but there were tears in my eyes. That is because he 'cucuk' me 'enam kali' or else there won't be tears at all.

"Mr Dentist...you lied to me. How come my sis only get ONE injection when she was wearing braces?."

The dentist told me to see him again on next monday(9th of october) at 10am. That will be the day he is going to put on braces for me. I guess I'm going to take only fluids after that. I know I'll be lazy to chew on food again with my 'gigi' like that. I'll upload pictures of me in braces that time and blog about the process of it in the dental clinic...if I remember bout it..heahea~.

Till then, see you again..tata~ ^^

2006-09-16T01:29:00.000-07:00

AM I REALLY CLEAN?

CLEAN POINTS:

[ ] You still like to make friends w/ your enemies
[x] You love your cellphone...[the kandungan]
[x] You have your own room...[meanwhile kakak took over d]
[ ] You like modelling
[x] You own a drawer
[x] You have a diary
[ ] You love slum books
[x] You have pictures of your friends (even the oldones)...[yarh..heahea~]
[x] You always clean your room
[ ] You love organizing stuff
[x] You cook your own food ( somtimes )
[x] You have sang infront of the class and they liked it...[ wa taktao they suka anot leh]
[ ] You're always confident
[x] You make sure you don't forget anything for school ( hahah!)
[x] You automatically wake up for school
[ ] You always clean your house
[ ] You love reading books
[x] People tell you that you're a silent type ofperson
[ ] Your teacher gives you good grades even when you get a failing grade
[ ] You always have an award/honor
[ ] You hate dogs
[x] You love comedy movies...[it makes wa laugh]
[ ] You like your hair
[x] You love your parents
[x] You're in a group
[x] You're always early for school
[ ] You don't use the computer when there's an exam
[x] You love friendster...[wa like it not love =p]

TOTAL X's: 48
Multiply the total X's by 3

MESSY POINTS:

[x] You're lazy in studying...[wa admit]
[ ] You like rock music
[ ] You're parents (or anybody) still wakes you up for school
[ ] You wanna kill your enemies
[ ] Your room is dirty
[ ] You don't wash the dishes after you eat
[x] You surf the net everyday even though there's an exam
[ ] You haven't been an honor student ever since
[ ] You hate class
[x] You love tigers/snakes...[wa love tigger]
[ ] You tease your teachers infront of them (or when not looking)
[x] You say bad words
[ ] You're always late for school
[ ] You love the color grey
[ ] You wanna run away from your house
[ ] You wanna make friends with beautiful people
[ ] You make sure your friends are rich
[ ] People like you for your looks
[ ] You never smile
[ ] You throw stuff at people who teases you
[x] You make faces when yourprincipal/teacher/parents warns you
[ ] You hate cleaning

TOTAL X's: 17
Multiply the total X's by 3 and add 2

What if I'm clean or dirty? I'm still me =p

2006-09-14T19:52:00.000-07:00

IS THAT MY TRUE PERSONALITIES?

: You are a passionate :
: caring, and unique person :
: You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals :
: You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily :
: Your heart tends to rule you :
: You can't make decisions without considering feelings :
: You seek out other empathetic people to befriend :
: Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships :
: In love, you give everything you have to relationships :
: You fall in love easily :
: At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career :
: With others, you communicate well :
: You can spend all night talking with someone :
: As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style :
: On weekends, you like to be with others :
: Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours :

http://www.blogthings.com/threequestionpersonalitytest/

What do you guys/girls think of mine? Is it accurate? True bout me?

2006-09-13T08:34:00.000-07:00

THOSE WERE THE DAYS~

Sometimes, I'll think back of my past..all the happiness and sadness that I've gone through with some people. They were my friends, my family. I had shared many sweet moments with many different people. I had also shed tears with certain people. Through out the journey of my life, I experienced different taste of life-

Ini budak sesat fr the picture above.

That was during the time when i was about to depart to serve for NS. That was the moment where I truely learned the meaning of friendship. I never knew I'll miss them terribly. We shared happiness and sadness together. They were my good friends. That night was the 1st time I cried because of the separation we were going to face. You'll never know how the feelings is til you're about to separate. I was touched when my friends went to visit me in the hospital when I was admitted into it. That time I was thinking.. 'Will I get to stand on my own and walk out to my friends out there to thank them for being concerned?' ... 'Will I have the chance to have fun with them again?' ... 'Will I have the chance to take care of my parent?'. That moment I cried. My mom came to take care of me everynight while my dad took over on da day. That was the 1st time I realised how much they cared for me..how much they loved me. Care more bout your parents before you lose them. Care for your friends and know who really cares bout you before they walks out from your life.

Many things had changed since al of us departed for college life at different places. Some were homesick, some miss ipoh's food, some miss the people in ipoh and etc. I thought college life was fun

*Thinking*

There were sadness in me too after I started college life. I also miss many things back there in ipoh. The people, my family, my friends, my dearr, my doggie, my fishes, my aircond room. I know some of you out there also missing someone. I know there is someone in your heart where you couldn't forget about. Sometimes, I'll ask myself..'Could i forget the past?'... 'Could I just don't care bout all the memories I had with them?'.

I don't have a picture of me crying so I put this.

Honest speaking, I'm sure all of you can't just let go like that. I'm sure some of you shed some tears too when you really think of those memories. Memories together will always be in my heart no matter that person is still there or not. We might not be able to keep that person to ourself forever but we could keep their image and the memories we had together with us forever. When you lose someone, do not be sad. The person wouldn't want to see us unhappy. Be proud that you had moments and memories with them before these. Some of you will think that i'm stupid posting this kind of blog.

Suddenly, I missed my grandpa. It had been three years since the day he left me. He would buy me ice-cream whenever I cried. Then, he would tell me to not to cry. Before he passed-away, he told me not to cry because he could not be with me anymore.

Grandpa said:

Do not cry my girl. I might not be able to be there for you any longer but my soul and the memories we had together will forever be with you in your heart. I could no longer buy you ice-creams when you cry. You're now a big girl. You must learn to take care of yourself. Many people worry and cares bout you.

I'm sorry my friends. I know I always asked for ice-cream from you all. To me, there is a meaning for the ice-cream. Some of you might think back of something or someone when you see something.

Is there anyone in your mind right now? Are you missing them? Sometimes, a simple greeting can show how much you still care for that someone. Let them know while they're still here to listen. Care for them as much as you want while they could still know bout it. You might say that you don't care. But... is it really true? You really don't miss them? You really don't care bout them anymore? All these... only you'll know. Ask yourself...'Is it true with what you said compare to the one in your mind?'.

When I was younger, I don't care about many things. I didn't know how the reality was. As I grow older, as I experienced more things in life, I began to realised many things. I realised how I really feel towards certain things or certain people. I learned to think carefully before making any final decision. I always regret after doing certain things without really thinking carefully. Did you experienced the same thing too?

*thinking again*

A decision will decide your next step. It will affect your future. Will you regret or not.. it all depends on your final decision. Sometimes, I wished I could be a lilGirl and never grow up. But, in reality, we're teenagers now. We have to learn to adapt to all the changes in life. Different things and different people will come into our life as we proceed.

Do you miss those days behind? Are you ready for the future?

The answers to all the questions lies deep in your heart. All you have to do is just sit back and think carefully. Real careful and you'll know what to do. Hope you'll found the answers to the questions you were guessing all these while.

This post might not be 'guan si' at all. But do think about it. =) All the best~

2006-09-11T22:57:00.000-07:00

Kissing Language (yup, it's a language)

if a kiss is the Language of Love, then we have a lot to talk about it
...methods of Love....

-kiss on the ear------"i'm horny"
-kiss on the cheek----"we're friends"
-kiss on the hand-----"i adore you"
-kiss on the neck------"we belong together"
-kiss on the shoulder-----"i want you"
-kiss on the lips------------"i love you" or "i want you"
-holding hands--------"we can learn to love each other"
-a wink-------------------"Let's get it on"
-slap on the butt----"thats mine"
-playing with the ear----"i can't live without you"
-holding on tight----"don't let go"
-looking into each other's eyes-----"let's get romantic"
-pulling hair on head----"tell me you loveme"
-arms around the waist---"i love you too much tolet go"

=advice=

if you're kissing someone, close your eyes. it's not nice to stare...
close your eyes and you'll be able to feel the true feelings.

So,anyone of you out there who did any of those above?

2006-09-08T14:58:00.000-07:00

EXAMS~OH nO~!!!!

It's 5.53am in the morning and I'm still awake. There are notes on MassComm subject scattered all over the table in the living room. There are 8 hours more and I'll be sitting in the exam hall, staring at the test paper with a blank mind.

I never like the exam period. It sarks alot to me. I've read all the important points in the notes but I still can't get all of it locked in my memory box.

HAaiihzz~!!!! Apa mao buat ni? Later I've to sit for this paper gar..hadjorjor~

I took a short nap earlier on, fr 3.40am to 4.30am. I'm supposed to feel energetic,right?! But then, I felt sleepy..sigh. Everyone is in their dreamland now and I'm here typing on my blog.

Ok..I is sarks! *sighing again*

How come my brain is not functioning as I wanted it to be? If only I have a smarter mind in brain. If only I'm a smart kid. If only I can memorize everything at one shot. If only I did more frequent revisions on my studies. If only I paid extra more attention in class. If only I did all the tutorial questions given by the lecturers.

HAaiihz~!!!! If only~

Now, at the wrong time, I'm beginning to regret. If only I was more hardworking and listened to all the naggings fr my housemates and friends whom were nagging me to study more and do more revisions.

It's 6.16am in the morning already. A blink of an eye and I'll be sitting in the exam hall, preparing to answer those questions which looks like aliens to me. Hmmmm....I shall continue to do my revision and try to insert all the notes that I've read into my 'chidunz' memory box. Hopefully I'll be able to score or at least pass this subject.

*worrying*

The power of fear is in my soul....*sigh*. Wish me all the best.

2006-09-07T21:43:00.000-07:00

THINGS THAT I FEARED THE MOST~

[x] the dark...(i never like being in darkness alone)
[x] staying single....(wawa..i dunwana be lonely when no 1 is no longer around me)
[ ] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[x] giving birth...(is it super painful to give birth?)
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[X] heights...(yarh yarh,wa takut ketinggian)
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[x] spiders and/or other insects..(they annoy me)
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[x] being put to sleep (anesthesia)...(o.O what will they do to me?)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] water...(water spirit O.O)
[ ] the ocean
[x] pools...(being alone in it is scary)
[x] failure...(no 1 wants failure)
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[ ] thunder/lightning
[x] frogs/toads...(eww~)
[x] mice/rats...(=O)
[x] jumping from high places...(*pengsanz*)
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cemeteries
[x] clowns...(some have evil smile)
[ ] large crowds
[x] demons or evil...(erm..wa haven't meet one =p)
[x] crossing bridges...(what if it breaks into half?)
[x] death...(macam tidur aja but i still wana wake-up)
[x] Hell...(i never like that place)
[ ] Heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] being sexually assaulted
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibility...(wa taktao handle stuff well =p)
[x] doctors, including dentists..(i nvr like to meet them)
[x] tornadoes
[x] hurricanes
[x] being punished
[x] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[x] snakes
[x] sharks
[x] dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[x] ghosts...(hoho..i like casper =p)
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[x] fear
[x] being alone
[x] losing my friends
[x] being blind to things...(i still want to see my loved ones) ^^
[x] being deaf...(i can't live without music)
[x] growing up..(i wana remain as a lilgirl)
[x] being murdered in my sleep...(i still wana see the world)

=p Hurhur~
meanwhile i'll update like this first since i have no idea what else to type. Now you all know what i'm afraid of. So, please do not use those to scare me or else i'll haunt you...buohohoho~

2006-07-24T02:07:00.000-07:00

A DREADFUL DAY

I know I'm already a 18th years old girl and I shouldn't cry like a 8th years old girl but I just can't stop myself from doing so.Suddenly,I feel so...so...*CRYING*...SO PAINFUL ERR~!!!!!!

*sniff sniff*

*tears trickling down cheeks*

Last night,I got terrible sorethroat and a terrible flu.I spent most of the night going to the basin in the bathroom to clear my nose.I popped two strepsils into my mouth before going to bed.Thanks to sueling because she drove out to helped me buy strepsils for me.

=) thanks yarh?!

Today my class is at 1pm so I woke-up at 11am in the morning.My class is supposed to be from 1pm to 4pm but Ms Liew is not free today so the class ended at 3pm instead.When I reached home,I bathed again though I already took a bath at 11.30am (sueling and lingsim said I waste water for bathing so many times).

After bathing,I went to the kitchen and took my whole meal LA bread to eat cause it's going to expire tomorrow.I ate four slices of bread,spread with blackcurrant jam and peanut butter.I sms-ed my dearr while eating..hurhur ^^

Then,I decided to online awhile since I was bored.Halfway o2jam-ming,I felt like eating apple so I went to the kitchen again,opened the fridge and took a green apple out.While I was cutting the apple...suddenly....

*CHOPPED*

O.O uh oh~!!

*blood oozing out from last finger*

OMG~!!! I ter-chopped my last finger instead of the apple.

T.T malangnya aku *sobz sobz*

Lingsim gave me a plaster with kitty's face on it and helped me to wrapped it around the wound..thanks yarh?!
Thanks to chuilynn too for helping me to cut the rest of the un-cut apple =p

Now...
Finger feel very very painful er~!!!!!

2006-07-04T21:08:00.000-07:00

MY TIMETABLE...huehuehue~

Monday 1pm-3pm J003 mass communication(lecture) ms ivy choong
3pm-4pm J101 english language(lecture) ms winnie liew

Tuesday 9am-10am B005 kemahiran berkomunikasi 1(lecture) cik nurul
10am-12pm J017 modern electronic media(lecture) ms anne lam
1pm-3pm J019 e-commerce(lecture) mr yah

Wednesday 9am-11am J101 information technology(lecture) ms tan
1pm-3pm J119 mass communication(tutorial) ms ivy choong
3pm-4pm B005 english language(lecture) ms winnie liew

Thursday 2pm-3pm J003 kemahiran berkomunikasi 1(tutorial) cik nurul
3pm-4pm B001 english language(tutorial) ms winnie liew
4pm-5pm J011 e-commerce(tutorial) mr yah

Friday 9am-10am J115 information technology(tutorial) ms tan
10am-12pm J115 modern electronic media(tutorial) ms anne lam

TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN,KAMPAR BRANCH:SEMESTER 1,YEAR 1..2006/07

2006-07-04T20:45:00.000-07:00

tHrOuGh ThE rAiN

When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is......

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And if you keep falling down don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is.....

I can make it through the rainI can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rainI can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
And I live once again
And I live one more day
And I can make it through the rain(Yes you can)
You will make it through the rain

2006-05-26T05:55:00.000-07:00

entertain_less

KAMPAR ENTERTAIN-LESS ERRRRRRRRrrrr~!!!!!!

Wa's apartment havent haf d internet line yet..T.T cant online yet dats y pigi kampar's imax to on9.Sini punya imax really vvv kurang pple ger.Most of the students here take up business admin n accounting.Wa wonder there will be how many students in PR class.

Orientation week mmg ....sien ler.Today got outdoor games...played water games n treasure hunt.=P oni chuilynn n szemin went 4da water games.Lingsim,sueling n wa slept at home til noon then oni went for the treasure hunt .Tomorrow is talent time n da last day of orientation week liao...huehue.Next will be orientation night where every1 dress formally n mr/ms tarc wilbe diketahui.The 5 finalist will compete on dat nite...5guys n 5 girls in pairs.Before that,da 5 pairs will take pics in wedding gowns n tuxedo macam wedding pics then judges compare those pics then wa taktau apa lagi da finalist hafta do liao.The seniors havent set the orientation night date yet.

^^ chuilynn n sueling is 1 of the top 20 tallest girl in college here.We were separated into 20 groups in this orientation week mer.

T.T 1st week of college oni n wa so unlucky liao.they hafta send out 20 lenglui n lengchai out to compete for the mr/ms tarc n da 5 finalist will compete on orientation night.U noe y wa said dat wa vvv da unlucky anot?T.T wa was chosen to compete too.If wa is 1 if the 5 finalist..huehue..wa gonna pengsanz on stage.1st week oni sudah unlucky..haihzz.Wa's group mmg eyes got probz ger,choose wa..ish.

Haihzz...vvv sien er..on9-ing alone in imax now.The rest went to their group's meeting jor.Wa's group tarak meeting..bored.

Wa guess wa gtg liao.Go back rest 1st.1st week here sudah not feeling well.Flu..cough..sorethroat...really unlucky.

2006-05-07T21:11:00.000-07:00

tRuE fRiEnDs

.-''''-.-''''-.
(''( '.') '.')
(/);(/) );(/)

aRe GiFtS...
nOt EaSiLy GaInEd.
iT rOoTs FrOm OnE's HeArT..
aNd InVoLvE mEmOrIeS tHaT sTaY...
fOrEvEr!!!!!!

Apani?!!This are the effects of rotting.
One more week left and most of our friends here will be leaving for their further education liao.

Separation time.......again.

tO mEeT..tO kNoW..tO dEpArT..
iS tHe SaDdEsT tHiNg In A hUmAn HeArT.

It's difficult to find someone like you.It's like opening a hundred shells under the sea,just to find only a pearl.It's easy to make new friends,but not all of them will be the kinda friend we wanted them to be.I'm glad and proud to have the friends I have now.

College...I wonder how it's gonna be.Staying with friends for a few years,sitting with new classmates in class,new environment,new faces,etc etc.I have to be more independent,more brave,more confident on myself liao.If I lack of those attitude,I guess I'm going to be a loser...guar.Dad said.."In the world outside,you have to learn to be smart and alert all the time","No one going to help you,if you don't help yourself first".

Is it really that horrible out there,in the working world?

Hmmm....here,I'm going to wish all of you..my dear friends,all the best to you, no matter what decision you gonna make.

2006-04-17T06:07:00.000-07:00

THANK YOU~

Thank you notes can be written for all sorts of occasions.
Sometimes it's nice to thank a friend for just being there during a difficult time.

There are so many occasions in life that call for a proper "THANK YOU".

Here,wa wana thank all of you out there who visited wa and care bout wa when wa was admitted into hospital ^.^

Wa don't know what more to say but...THANK YOU!!!!

^.^

2006-03-17T20:33:00.000-08:00

LAST POST BEFORE I LEAVE...for ns.

Sudah masa for us to leave each other and its the beginning of the new chapter of our life.

Life has always been like that.There are happiness and sadness in it.When we're happy..we cry so the tears of happiness could flow down our cheeks.When we're sad..we cry too.I realised each time i cried,I'll find something or someone to hug.When I hug them..I don't feel like letting them go.But,no matter what is it,I still have to loosen the hug and see them leave me...one by one.

In my 18yrs of life,I see all my loved ones,one by one leaving me behind.

First,it was my grandpa whom I'm closed to the most.He had passed-away 2yrs ago.He was the one who gave me a pat on my head and called me silly girl(I miss that calling..his voice).He was the one who wiped away the tears fr my eyes because no one ever did that to me.He was the one who took me to my neighbourhood playground every evening after dinner.He was the one who promised to buy me an ice cream if I promise him that i'll stop crying.I miss my grandpa..his voice..the touch of his hands when he wiped away my tears.If I have the chance to see my grandpa for one last time..I would want to tell him that..."Grandpa,I get to enter college already.I did it and I promise I'll study even harder in college....and...I miss you very much,grandpa."

I know that he had gone and left me,but no matter what,the image of him will forever be kept in my mind.

Now..its my friends turn to leave me.As I said..one by one is leaving me.Why do this have to happen?The friendship I have with all of you who is reading this now,I'll cherish all those moments we had together.I'll remember all the laughters and sorrows we shared together.Some of our friendships was short and long but no matter what is it...you're my friend...forever mine.

As all of you know that I'm not good with words.So,I'll end this blog with my own written poem.

FRIENDSHIP

Memories of the days we spent together
Will always I cherish
Together we struggled for survival
Through the hard times of our lives
The worst was yet to come
But together we tolerated and endured it
We shared fun and laughter
Jokes we told to each other
When I recalled the memories
one or two tears prickle on my eyes
The days will never come back
And there will no one like you
To help cheer me up...
in my melancholy
Things have changed now
Circumstances made us apart
But you will never change to me
Deep in my heart,
there you are....
a very special friend to me..
and always.

2006-03-16T18:58:00.000-08:00

fInAl PoSt...

^.^

As all of you know that i'm not good with words and sentences thats why i seldom update my blog XP

Today is friday,tomorrow is saturday and sunday is just around the corner.
What is with sunday?If you don't know,it is the day where the 2nd batch NS fellas gonna leave.It means that chingz,lsimz and i going to leave you all soon...vv soon.

Before i leave,i want to leave some of my wordings and sentences here ^.^

HEY...LINGSIM!!!..my great2 grandma and also my longest and closest friend(12yrs),if you're reading this..i want to say thanks for being my friend,thanks for helping me alot since primary 1,thanks for listening to me when i have something to say.Actually,THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!*HUGXX*.Sorry for shouting here but they said if your heart felt heavy and when your eyes are teary..SHOUT as loud as you can.So...MOI LING SIM,I'M GONNA MIZZ YOU ALOT!!!!! ^.^ You and your mongochai cute ler.Oh yarh..thanks for the b'day cake you baked for me.All these years,this is the 1st time my friends baked a b'day cake for me.Even my mom didn't do so.I'll remember the taste of that cake..it was tasty..really.

CHINGZ!!!!Hadjo..ini budak,studies mmg far more better than me,But..there are weakness in her too.There are certain stuff that she actually not dare to do.Physically mmg is a 18yr old teenage girl but mentally....should i say she is a 8yr old lilgirl?or younger than that?..=p Anyway,chingz..you're gonna leave soon,so just do whatever you think that you need to settle..your feelings and stuff,understand what i'm trying to say here?By the way,CHONG CHEE CHING....though i'm only close to you since f4,i do cherish those moments we had.Thanks for helping me in my studies,my problems and many other stuff.Oh yarh..!Most important is..thank you so much because without you i won't know kOkseng.Yarh..kOkseng..not your dad,k?!Luckily,we're gonna be in the same camp..thank the stars ^.^ Hmmm....CHONG CHEE CHING!!!!!THANKS FOR EVERYTHING TOO!!!! T.T

ONG SUE LING!!!!iiyoryor...ini budak.kinda lembik like me oso geh..or should i say you more lembik than me?i mean emotionally..=p this girl here taught me many stuff too...cooking?Without her i won't know how to make macaroni cheese..lolx.That was the 1st food she taught me.She did help me with my studies too..thx.I get to know her since f2 ten got closer in f3 and from there our friendship blossom =) We're gonna study in the same college and going to stay together too.Cook more nice food for me yarh?!..haha.Thanks for that chocolate mint cake you baked for me for my b'day..my favourite and it was delicious.I'll always remember that.Aihxx...as you know i'm not good with words,so...I'M GOING TO MIZZ YOU,ONG SUSU!!!!Can i don't leave? T.T

Hmmm...Wong Chui Lynn,got to know her through that sei keijoe.=p didn't expect that i'll get to know her more and then got closer to her too.Thats why,do expect the unexpected.She is a nice girl.Can chat whatever with her also.Hmmm...this girl here.Kinda same case with chingz also..not really dare to do what they relly want to do.Chuilynn..und me?By the way,thanks for being my friend.There is lots to say,tapi aku perkataan-less ler ^.^
I'm gonna mizz you in ns!!!

TAN THIAN HOE...GOR!!!!...MCFLURRY!!!!!!!!!!!!

TEH MUN BEN!!!!Hmmmm....ini budak..MY HAM JIM PENG!!!!!!!!!!!

TIMMY MOONG...lingsimz's mongochai!!!!takeCare of great2 grandma o ^.^

LEE SENG FOO!!!!!!!!! dis budak here...am i gonna get more stars when i return? =)

WONG KEI JOE!!!!!!!!Erm...dunno what to say bout him pula.STOP THAT G THINGY!!!!!!!!!!Sei kjoe you.

Finale!!!!Sudah sampai soh lou's turn.Ini budak..my ngachoichai(taugeh).THANKS FOR EVERYTHING,SOHLOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!Yarh,i'm shouting here.You know why? i know why ^.^
I MIZZ YOU!!!I LOVE YOU!!!

I'M GONNA MIZZ EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DO TAKECARE!!!!!!!!!!

MAY THE BRIGHTEST STAR SHINES ON YOU AND SHOWERS YOU WITH ALL THE GOODLUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

^.^

ChiaYin will be back soon.

Mizz me?
look for the brightest star inda sky.
Why?
cuz chiayin will be looking at it too ^.^

^.^

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-04T03:07:00.000-08:00

CUP NOODLE ROX XD

Hurhur...we bought so many cup noodles fr tesco.Erm... wa know dat susu gonna bash me cuz i left her and went out at the vvv last minute.

Sori yarh =p

Sengfoo n kokseng tiba2 came to my house so we went out together with chingz n lingsim.We went tesco buy cup noodles only.There r still many other stuff dat we havent buy yet.Monday we go jj yarh?

You all want ur cup noodles,pay me...HEAHEAHEA!!!!!

Another plastic bag with lingsim.All together ada 2 plastic bags of cup noodles.1 with me,1 wif lingsim.

BUOHOHOHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cup noodles...erm....ROX?

2006-03-02T04:38:00.000-08:00

ONE MONTH EARLIER

....tepat-tepat 1mth earlier

Wa celebrating my 18th birthday tomorrow since sueling suggested it.She said ngam ngam 1mth earlier.My actual b'day is onda 3rd of april mer but that time i'll be in NS camp jor.

So...tomorrow those who're free,meet you all at happy valley at 7pm.

Sueling gonna bake me a b'day cake XD...thx susu!! =p

I'm celebrating at happy valley cuz tomorrow chingz n seng got work.

So...tomorrow cya at happy valley at 7pm yarh?!

XD

2006-02-28T22:41:00.000-08:00

=.= TiTlE-lEsS

I hate da tiga benda thingy dat most of you out there post liao.My comp ....ISH!!...cacat.I retyped dat post for 5times d edy n when i was about to post...dc pula.

Thats da reason apasal i lazy to update blog..memafankan.

Finale...genting trip!!!!

I went to the genting office at greentown jor.I paid for 9pple punya tickets d.The other two more tickets on hold cuz jialoong n suetli haven't confirm.11pple goin genting but unfortunately,chingz can't make it.

Those who confirmed going genting:

1 chiayin
2 sueling
3 lingsim
4 chuilynn
5 kokseng
6 keijoe
7 timmy
8 thianhoe
9 cheekeen

Two more who belum lagi confirm:

1 suetli
2 jialoong

Those who paid me liao:

1 sueling
2 thianhoe
3 chuilynn
4 kokseng
5 cheekeen

Those who still hutang me:

1 keijoe
2 lingsim
3 timmy
4 suetli
5 jialoong

HMMMmmm....so sementara is liddat lor.

The trip onda 7,8,9 of march.Bus bertolak at 9am at genting office in greentown.Onda 9th,when we balik..bus bertolak at 3pm.

2006-02-24T20:31:00.000-08:00

3more days to go n...

...i can cabut lu.

~no more customers to serve
~no more tables to wipe
~no more food to carry
~no more dishes to wash
~no more water to sprinkle..splash..pour..shower..RAIN =p
~no more chiayin in happy valley =p

tiba2 macam tak sampai hati to leave happy valley pula =.=

NONONONO!!!!!~

watashiwa kenot lembut hati.muz leave by next tuesday...heahea.

2006-02-21T00:07:00.000-08:00

7more days...

...and i'll fire dat manager(******)

Can i sprinkle,splash or shower her on dat day?..cz dat will be da last day i'm working there.I'll take my gaji then go to the back of the shop n play with "some" water...buohohoho!!!!!!

Before all these,to me she was a friendly woman,but then...mana tahu sekelip mata ni,she changed into a...a....ISH!!!..dunwana think of her face liao.She pilih kasih n a pretender.

Luckily i'm off tmr..tak payah see her face.Even the fishes in the aquarium in my hse looks better than her,even my doggie more friendlier and nicer than her.

I'm so gonna.....sprinkle,splash,pour and if possible shower her on dat day.

We shall see what she is gonna do again today.

2006-02-15T18:14:00.001-08:00

I WANT WHAT I WANT

Every1 are trying to get what they mahu n they r working for it now...(wa pun want =p).

~Wa wana learn to fold dolphins(i noe its impossible =.=)
~I want 1million stars for my b'day(..so i can haf 1million wishes =p )
~Wa mau swim with dolphins(can i?..O_O )
~I want a cake made of fren'z love(baked by frenz) on my b'day =)
~Wa mau many many new stuff...(money susah 2get out fr my pocket)
~I want senget lips =p (any1 c it?..)

I WANT WHAT I WANT!!!!
WA MAHU APA YG WA MAHU!!!!!

Dunno bila ni i'll get wat i wanted above.HmMm...

2006-02-15T18:14:00.000-08:00

2006-02-11T08:25:00.000-08:00

18TH BIRTHDAY...HOPEFULLY

I'm celebrating my 18th birthday onda 17th of march cuz that day is my chinese b'day according to the chinese calendar.It is a friday..2 days before i leave for NS.Since i won't be able to celebrate my actual birthday with you all which is on the 3rd of april then i shall celebrate it on my chinese birthday.I'll let you all know more bout it later.

Hopefully you all can make it ler =) I'm getting my mom to bake me a cake 4me since she never bake 1 before.Hopefully she can make it.

2006-02-09T20:51:00.000-08:00

JOKES FOR VALENTINE

What do farmers give their wives on Valentine's Day?
Hog and kisses!

What would you get it you crossed Odie with the God of love?
A stupid cupid!

Why did the pig give his girlfriend a box of candy?
It was Valenswine's Day!

Do skunks celebrate Valentine's Day?
Sure, they're very scent-imental!

What did the chocolate syrup say to the ice cream?
"I'm sweet on you!"

What did the paper clip say to the magnet?
"I find you very attractive."

What did the French chef give his wife for Valentine's Day?
A hug and a quiche!

What would you call a woman who goes out with Jon?
Desperate!

What did one pickle say to the other?
"You mean a great dill to me."

Knock, Knock!
Who's there?
Olive.
Olive who?
Olive you!

What did the elephant say to his girlfriend?
"I love you a ton!"

What did the bat say to his girlfriend?
"You're fun to hang around with."

Did you hear about the nearsighted porcupine?
He fell in love with a pincushion!

What did the pencil say to the paper?
"I dot my i's on you!"

Liz: "I can't be your valentine for medical reasons."
Jon: "Really?"
Liz: "Yeah, you make me sick!"

Why did the cannibal break up with his girlfriend?
She didn't suit his taste!

2006-02-09T20:25:00.000-08:00

SOMEWHERE OUT THERE

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of you and loving you tonight
Somewhere out there someone is saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that dream somewhere out there

And even though i know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

2006-02-08T21:32:00.000-08:00

O_O WHAT?!?!

TARC in kampar dunhaf masscomm..broadcast?!?!..apa ni.Only have public relation under masscomm.Watashiwa not interested in that oso T.T
Before the edufair in kl n b4 i noe boue TARC,my parent n i went and check out in sunway college ipoh before.Sana have courses like business,accounting n marketing oni.All oso gotta do wif calculations n numbers geh n i'm horribly weak in numbers.When we were there,the counsellor intro bout marketing to my parent.He said ada masa depan yg cerah n my parent was like persuading me to study marketing..mata terbeliak.That time lingsim and sueling dunno where to go yet n i was like..Sunway College Ipoh..hmmm....i don't have frenz there wor.Then after the edufair,sueling n lingsim decided n confirmed to go TARC kampar.Yesterday,sueling tiba2 sms n said she most probably goin kl TARC..apa ni.She gonna study masscomm..advertising.Tarc kampar tarak wor.Masscomm in kampar oni have public relation..apa ni.Chingz gonna go TOA n lingsim goin TARC kampar.My parent secara tegas don't let me go kl..want me to stay in ipoh 1st.I only have two choices..either public relation in TARC kampar or marketing in Sunway College ipoh.Hmm..both oso i dunhaf interest in it geh.Aihx...cz i'm weak in numbers so marketing not suitable for me.Left 1pilihan oni now...public relation in kampar lor.My dream to study broadcasting sudah terbang away from me liao.

OUT OF THE BLUE

I was blogging halfway den chat with sueling.Then....tears T.T A month left to be 2geta with frenz ni.Out fr NS all will terus in college d...apa ni.Tiba2 time past so fast..apa ni.Though chingz n i same NS camp but she'll leave me too soon cuz she goin kl TOA.T.T i dunlike this.Though lingsim goin kampar..same college with me but she taking business course..how to help me with my assignments?I need help all the time.I dunno will end up taking wat course oso...aihx...

2006-02-08T18:36:00.000-08:00

LOVE QUOTES

-If music be the food of love,play on

-Grow old along with me,the best is yet to be

-Love is the enchanted dawn of every heart

-Charm is a way of getting the answer yes without having asked any clear question

-One of the keys to happiness is a bad memory

-Love may not make the world go round,but i must admit that it makes the ride worthwhile

-Love is like the measles;we all have to go through it

-It is never too late to fall in love

2006-02-07T22:42:00.000-08:00

NATIONAL SERVICE

I was listening to music and out of a sudden i received a sms fr great2 grandma saying...chingz and i kena setiawan n she kena kelantan.yarh..kelantan.Wait a minute..dat sounds different.O_O WHAT THE HEAVEN!!!!!!KELANTAN!!!!!OMG!!!Lingsim the girl hu doesn't eat vege n spicy food goin K.E.L.A.N.T.A.N.
Tiba2 mata kinda berair.My fren of 12yrs gonna separate fr us soon...my closest fren...T.T

NS changes many things n i begin to dislike it.Ia merampas rakan aku.Memisahkan aku dari rakan2 yg lain.But at least i still have chingz to accompany me.At least i have a fren to celeb b'day wif me..thx chingz.Guess u hafta take care of me in camp lor =)

Keputusan Semakan

Anda telah dipilih untuk menyertai PROGRAM KHIDMAT NEGARA. Program ini akan berjalan selama 3 bulan.

Butir-butir pendaftaran adalah seperti di bawah:

No Kad Pengenalan : 880403085634

Kumpulan : 2

Tarikh Mula : 19/3/2006

Tarikh Ahkir : 10/6/2006

Nama Kem :Teluk Rubiah Manjung, Sri Manjung

Alamat Kem :Teluk Rubiah Mukim Setiawan32040 Sri Manjung

Negeri : PERAK

Lingsim..dun worry cuz wif your cheerful personality you'll get new good frenz there.I'm sure you'll enjoy urself..trust me.You'll never noe til u'r there.It won't be dat bad after all.No matter what i'm so gonna mizz you...my closest fren.

2006-02-06T05:31:00.000-08:00

Edison cute leh?!..heahea.I like him for so long liao but still can't see a single human out there that look like him..sobxsobx.

I WANT TO MEET HIM...at least the look a like will do =p

Sien-nya....frenz went and steam the boat while i'm here growing rumput =.= .I WANT OYSTERS ERR!!!!!!!MIII......U OWE ME!!!!!!!Can i have a star-shaped oysters?..hurhur.Oh yarh!Talking bout stars i didn't know that Azlin like stars too..haha..same gang with me.

Out of the blue i feel like wana play with dolphins tim.I wana swim with them err...sure vv fun de.Imagine playing with dolphins inda water under the sky decorated with twinkling stars then let off some fireworks =) Don't know when only i'll have the chance to do so..sigh.It will be the best if i can celebrate my birthday in that kind of atmosphere with the special someone(itu watashiwa dunno hu dat will be and dunno will have anot).

Dolphinz...Starz...Fireworkz...!!!!!!

2006-01-31T12:34:00.000-08:00

HOME ALONE

It is 4.40 am now and i'm still awake..can't get my eyes to shut down.It is absolutely vvv quiet over here and i'm feeding mosquitoes...(wa kena gigit).Sigh...what shall i do leh?!?!?!?!?...bored...everyone piglet-ing.

Sudah a week i worked in HAPPY VALLEY and it is fun plus friends around.Though it was busy the whole day but it was fun too....got food to curi n eat..got cute lil kids to see...got cool guys to look at...got gossips to listen to...got taugeh to support us when we kena fr da bosses(thx loadz)...get to meet new frenz..get to haf a mom(taugeh) lolz and dis mom of mine mmg caring geh and get to have fun around too.HAPPY VALLEY is really a happy place to hang out.

This year angpaos money not much ni but i'm still happy to receive it..heahea...money mer.I need new shoes..new pants..and many more.

It is 1st of february liao..NS getting nearer edy..time to spend with frenz oso shorter jor.Gonna miz all the fun and laughter we had together ler.Gonna miz da tortoise jelly too(its jelly only mer..not real tortoise oso)..i care for underwater creatures geh..heahea.Lets hold a farewell party for da second batch NS frenz b4 they leave,k?!..including me.I'm trying to be optimistic bout this NS stuff..take it as an adventure camp.I guess i better don't talk bout NS stuff yet or else my eyes will berair geh ler.

HMMmmm...its 5am jor and my eyes are still wide open pula.I'm supposed to be sleepy after working for the whole day.Apasal wa feel energetic pula??

2006-01-22T19:52:00.000-08:00

UNLUCKY MORNING

I woke up at 10.30am and had 'luk dau sar' for breakfast.After that..switched on the comp and *CRASH*...down went the shelf.I was shocked and stood there don't know what to do.All the 'kueh tah peh' broke into pieces d...sei lor.Mom reached home and saw the tin of biscuits and i told her what had happened.As you know..kena marah ler ofcuz.Haihz...what an unlucky morning.Hopefully i won't break anything tonight when i'm working.

2006-01-18T20:47:00.000-08:00

COFFEE....KOPI!!!

Ytd went to happy valley to learnt to make coffee(it was a mistake cuz taugeh tot wa good in making coffee) while chingz was there to get briefing.Susu was there too..she wanted to see the environment.Seng boo was there and he is SOOOOooooo cute.He giggled and laughed most of the time.He laughed too while he was eating..so scared he tercekik.We spent most of our day there...tasting coffee.I taste til haf to curi ice to eat..the ice was refreshing and cool..I LOVE ICE NOW!!!!Then my stomache began to make funny noises(i was hungry..ate 1 slice of whole meal bread for breakfast.)All of us there made coffee and i guess i did not make a cup of sour coffee...did i??Later..about 5pm,susu,chingz and i went to jj to have our late lunch in mcd.We tumpang gjian's car(thx 4da ride yarh).My dad came and fetch me home after eating..no time to join susu and chingz for a walk.
At night,my dad took my sis and i out to pasar malam(wednesday mer..as usual).Luckily it didn't rain.The sky was decorated with stars...beautiful sparkling bright stars.I ate cendol ice potong,laksa(it was so spicy)..ate til whole head sweating(macam baru mandi).Then sis and i bought pearl tea(hers was strawberry flavour n mine was mint)...*cooling-nya*.Before we balik,my sis bought chao taufu(taufu busuk).On my way home..i looked and admired the sparkling stars(the stars are just so nice to look at).

2006-01-14T06:51:00.000-08:00

THAI HORROR MOVIE:LONG KHONG

This morning i should have ffk them(sueling,suemay,keijoe,thianhoe) so that i don't have to watch this movie.THE MOVIE WAS HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!I'm so gonna kill them for recommending this movie....ISH!!!I spent most of my time closing my eyes and ears with my hands....and it was SO tiring...tangan pun kejang.Though i did close my ears but the sound effect was still SO clear....WAWAWAWA......hate it!!!I'm so not gonna watch thai horror movie in cinema again....NEVER EVER AGAIN!!!!Actually it was not scary...it was disgusting.Malam ni macam mana i'm gonna fall asleep?!My eyes gonna be WIDE open and i'll stay awake til sunrise.T_________T I don't like this kinda feelings at all.The images of the movie still on my mind.
Now..wa punya flu become worst...plus cough...ISH!!Remind me to NEVER EVER WATCH THAI HORROR MOVIE IN CINEMA AGAIN....thank you!!

2006-01-13T19:30:00.000-08:00

EDISON ROX!!
wikikiki...Wa too free edy.btw,Edison leng chai leh...wakakaka.

2006-01-13T19:19:00.000-08:00

BEST OF FRIENDS...1more(sueling) sesat edy.

2006-01-12T17:46:00.000-08:00

TARC ACCOMMODATION

Hostel accommodation is available at the Kuala Lumpur Main Campus. Sited on a 6-acre land, the hostel consists of 10 blocks of 5-storey building with 1,000 rooms which can accommodate 2,000 students.
Facilities in the hostel include:

-Cafeteria
-Cyber-café
-Study room
-Convenience and stationery shop
-Hot / cold water dispensers
-ATM Machine
-Photocopying service
-Broadband internet services
-Laundry machines
-Public telephones
-Parking facilities for vehicles

College students are also able to find accommodation in the nearby housing estates in the vicinity of the College campuses.

Housing areas that are popular with the Main Campus students are:

-Taman Bunga Raya
-Taman Desa Setapak
-Wangsa Maju
-Taman Melawati
-Taman Melati
-Wangsa Melawati
-Taman Genting
-Taman Sri Rampai
-Setapak Jaya
-Setapak Indah

Outstation students should arrive in their respective campuses much earlier before the semester/term begins so that they can make the necessary arrangements for their accommodation.

Students are advised that it is to their advantage to enter into a tenancy agreement with the landlord. It is important that the terms and conditions of the contract should be clearly stipulated so as to avoid any misunderstandings. Copies of "Guidelines on Tenancy Agreements" and "Sample Tenancy Agreements" are available at the respective Campuses' Student Affairs Office upon request

Information on rooms availability is regularly disseminated on notice boards maintained by the Student Affairs Office.

The College advertises in local newspapers before the commencement of the First Semester to invite house owners to contact the Student Affairs Office if they have any rooms/houses to let.

2006-01-11T23:05:00.000-08:00

AS IT COMES

As I sit here infront of the comp
I observe my friend's names
And look forward to the year
going by

It's gonna be sad
To say good- bye
I'll miss everyone.
I know I will cry.

I remember the day
When I came back
To be with my friends
And get on the right track.

We had so many moments;
Some bad, most great.
I'll always remember the love
And erase the hate.

I don't wanna say good- bye
To all my friends.
I don't want this year
Cause i'm going NS.

2006-01-11T22:54:00.000-08:00

DRAGON!!!!!

The Dragon is one of the most powerful and lucky Signs of the Chinese Zodiac. Its warm heart makes the Dragon's brash, fiery energy far more palatable. This is a giving, intelligent and tenacious Sign that knows exactly what it wants and is determined to get it. Dragons possess a certain natural, charming charisma that ensures they can always influence their peers and often find themselves the center of attention in social situations. This Sign is truly blessed, too; Dragons are considered to be very lucky in love! The Dragon's friends are always keen to hear what this firebrand has to say and when it comes to dispensing advice, the Dragon has the floor.

Its ego can get in the Dragon's way, but even so, this larger-than-life creature has a knack for initiating projects and keeping the troops motivated. According to Dragons, it's their natural born right to lead the way -- because who else could do it so surely and so well? As lucky as they are, Dragons have a good chance of achieving considerable material wealth during their lifetimes, although it isn't mere money that's this Sign's main motivation. Power is what the Dragon wants and truly believes it deserves. Dragons are quite the opportunists, forever searching for ways in which to consolidate their considerable power. Contrary to all this strength and fire, a weakened Dragon is a sad sack, a creature that refuses to take defeat with even a modicum of grace.

The role of leader is the only one the Dragon wants, the better from which to give orders and be king of the hill. They make solid leaders, too, knowing instinctively what needs to be done to stay on top. Crossing the Dragon is never a good idea -- this beast can singe! A valuable life lesson for this clever creature would be to absorb the principles of flexibility, compassion and tolerance. Being high and mighty can serve to inspire others, but it also keeps Dragons from living their lives to the fullest. If Dragons can learn to balance their quest for success with an appreciation for the little things, their life will be more than worthwhile.

The most compatible match for a Dragon is the Monkey or the Rat.

2006-01-11T21:38:00.000-08:00

SICK EDY

Last night went to bed right after dinner at 6.30pm.I ate 3spoons of rice with soup only..like old lady eating.What to do..sorethroat mer.Got up at 1.15am and i was like OH MY GOSH!!!..no voice coming out from my mouth at all..bisu ke??Throat was as dry as the desert..went and took a sip of water but can't get myself to swallow it.Then my stomach felt kinda funny..i was hungry..went and hunt for food then suddenly i remembered that i can't even swallow a few drops of water how can i eat pula?!T________T i want FOOD!!!!!!...hungry errrr...!!!!After staring at the loaf of bread..gave-up and headed back into the room.My eyes was wide opened..can't get myself to fall asleep pula.So i played miscals and sms..wikiki!!At least there were some1 for me to kacau..wakaka!!Then..this morning force myself to swallow egg tart without water.
Just now mom called to accompany her out and she bought a packet ot honey and lemon strepsils.I ate 3 after 1 another..at least i can hear abit of my voice now..wikikiki!!!Thanks to strepsils.Now its 2.10pm and i'm HUNGRY!!!!...wa pigi hunt for food 1st.This morning ate 1 tart oni...and 3strepsils.

2006-01-10T22:21:00.000-08:00

JAPANESE NAMES

moi ling sim=hamano ayumi
chong chee ching=watanabe chiaki
ong sue ling=saruwatari etsuko
wong kei joe=saruwatari taiki
teh mun ben=sakamoto takumi
yap kok seng=matsuo takumi
lee seng foo=hara shun
tan thian hoe=akimoto taiki
foo khai tsen=yoshikuni kazuma
foo chia wern=yoshikuni chiaki
wong yew choong=saruwatari kazuki
moong kien san=saruwatari takumi
shim pui khe=ishimaru junko
wong chui lynn=saruwatari michiyo
foo chia yin=yoshikuni chiaki
mah wang tzuu=yumi tsubasa
ng yue hua=saruwatari michiyo
looi kar weng=matsuo akira

sementara waktu oni this names i'm showing.cant think of other pple edy.

2006-01-10T04:17:00.000-08:00

10th JAN 06..1ST DAY OF WORK AT IMAX.

Woke up at 7.30am and got myself ready for the job.Went for breakfast at ipoh garden south..the shop where tokguru kena food poisoning.Arrived at parade at 9.15am..walked to the basement's carpark..took the lift and went to the 3rd floor.There were already a guy there went i stepped into imax.I told him it was my 1st day of work.He showed me around and told me what to do.My daily work every morning is to wipe all the comps there with dettol water.Have to clean and ready everything by 10am when all the customers begin to arrive.OMG!!!it was already fullhouse at 10.30am...=.= semua DOTA ni.My duty is to walk around the place and see if the customers nid my help..working in imax macam attending DOTA lesson.
Break time oni half an hour.I went to foodcourt and ate chee cheong fun with a glass of 100plus..went to the toilet and ran back to imax to continue my work.My collegues were friendly and nice...vvv busy too.The supervisor is BengJoo n the rest is HaoMing and JustinLow.Our manager is KenLow..dia extemely busy..jaga all the imax.I learned to switch internet line there..easier for customer to play..more faster.My work end at 6pm.

2006-01-08T07:04:00.000-08:00

7TH JAN 06..TRIP TO KL EDUFAIR.

Woke up at 6.30am after receiving miscal from hamba dicucuk(sueling).I thought she was on her way to my house edy so i quickly hopped out of bed and got myself ready for the arrival of hamba dicucuk.Then,i sms-ed her while waiting for her to arrive.Mana tahu she was still at home.7something ni i saw her batang hidung..=.= kalau aku noe i won't get up dat early.After dat,humans began to arrived.I saw tokguru aka hamba dipicit and timmy so i told my "kakak" to opened the gate for them.Few minutes later,both of them were still in da car dunno doing what tak mau come into the rumah.Then..linggi arrived followed by hamba dicucuk.We were about to begin our journey but then...the two guys hilang pula.We waited awhile n finally saw them.Actually i was supposed to drive us down but then timmy's uncle came and asked whose driving so i ended up being a passenger instead of a driver.Linggi,timmy n my younger sis sat at the back of the car cuz they were the skinniest where else hamba dipicit,hamba dicucuk n i sat infront of the 3skinny passenger.

We reached klcc bout 10something inda morning.my parent n i 2geta with linggi n hamba dipicit went to the sunway college,TARC n KDU booth to enquire bout the courses we decided to take.Linggi n hamba dicucuk decided to study bout business n i'm interested in masscomm.Linggi n hamba dicucuk planned to go to TARC n i wanted to go to KDU but my parent told me to go to TARC.We had our lunch in klcc shopping centre.After dat we went n walked around.Actually we planned to go to KDU campus to have a look around but it was kinda late so we ended up going back to ipoh.There were no peace in da car along the journey.Wa mau tidur pun susah..kepala moved here n there.Linggi was the paling giler one.

Finally we reached home with yat chao yi lang of plastic bags with all kinda pamphlets from different colleges..macan shopping ni.So..now my parent deciding where to put me in..TARC or KDU.I'm still convincing my parent to put me in KDU but i guess i sure will end up in TARC.Nevermind..at least got linggi n hamba dicucuk there to take care of me..ikikiki.

2006-01-07T19:58:00.000-08:00

TO MY DAD..miss ya.

As soft winds sweep away the days
I look back on life through a haze.
Remember playgrounds, parks and friends,
In childlike gaze that never ends.
The laughter in a game of catch,
Shall memory ever attach...
To innocence in youthful eyes,
Catching the ball to Dad's surprise.

I recall my first bike, first wreck,
Who picked me up, said, "What the heck?"
Convinced me to give one more try,
While, knees skinned, I forgot to cry.
Just the joy knowing he was there,
Making him proud my only care.
There was nothing I couldn't do,
My heart held fast that to be true.

Though teenage years were kind of rough,
I sure wasn't too big or tough.
You taught me to defend what's right
And never back down from a fight.
So I learned the hard way to stand,
Still, with each lump, I found your hand.
Drawing from you an inner strength,
And stubborn pride of equal length.

But there the line of fate was drawn,
As though I blinked and you were gone.
I found myself facing the sun,
Not man, not boy, fatherless, one.
Eyes blinded by a void inside,
I could not believe that i'll be leaving you
Alas finding it to be true,
I could do nothing without you.

Please, Dad, today just hear my call,
I'm sorry that I dropped the ball.
My life is wrecked, my knees are skinned,
My emotions undisciplined.
I can't get up although I try,
Please don't be upset if I cry.
Though I can't fight what I can't see,
Please, Dad, say you're still proud of me.

2006-01-07T19:38:00.000-08:00

UNDERSTANDING FRIENDS

With you, it's all about
voiceless communication-
always knowing exactly what to say,
but never actually having to say it.

When no one seems to be listening,
you hear.
When I hurt but don't show it,
you know.
When I turn away to hide my tears,
you see.
When I feel like I can't get through to anyone,
you understand.

Your eyes glow just for me,
and I know you're proud.
You flash your magical, healing smile my way,
and I know everything will be all right.

You know everything there is to know about me.
You know what worries me,
what keeps me up at night,
and what shames me so badly
that I can't share it with anyone.
Most importantly, though,
none of those things bother you.

You've restored my faith in people
and proved that there is a thing
called true friendship.

2006-01-07T08:26:00.000-08:00

TO MY MOM...love ya!!

For many months you carried me
Anxious Mother soon to be
Your heartbeat was my lullaby
Safe inside as time ticked by.
You waited for the day I came
And patiently I did the same
Each day that passed,
I grew and grew
The time so long and yet it flew
And when I finally had arrived
Your eyes so tired yet so alive
Your heart so happy and yet you cried
Tears of Happiness, joy and Pride
Thank you for all your pain and strife
You sacrificed to give me life
Thank you for your warm embrace
Your patient soul and loving face
You are my Mother and my Friend
And we’ll be together until the end.

2006-01-07T07:55:00.000-08:00

HMmm...

What is it?
It has four legs
It eats hay.It has a tail
And it sees just as wellfrom either end.
A horse with his eyes shut.

Why are fish so smart?
They are in homeschools.
What is the difference between a donkey and a postage stamp?
One you lick with a stick,
the other you stick with a lick.

What question can never be answered with "yes"?
Are you asleep?

2006-01-03T21:50:00.000-08:00

1ST TIME BLOGGING~

I shall begin from the day 2005 left us and dimana 2006 arrived.It was 1st of january and it was the day all of our 1st batch NationalService friends left us.That morning...chingz,linggi,sueling,my tokguru(thianhoe),my daddy(keijoe),benz n i had our last breakfast together with dennis and rocky before sending them off.Coincidently chiayee was there too and she was part of the 1st batch NS participant.
After breakfast,all of us went to STADIUM INDERA MULIA to see our friends off.That was the saddest part of the day.I saw jialoong's mom hugging him tightly and from that moment onwards...my fragile heart begin to crack.In my mind i was imagining my mom hugging me before seeing me off and yarh..i'm part of the NS pple too and i'm in 2nd batch.Imagine being separated from family and friends for 3months.Alright,back onto the track..1 of my friend broke down after holding back the tears for so long.Looking at her..i felt the moisture in my eyes.I didn't want to cry along with her cuz i was trying my best to console her.1 by 1 i looked at my friends left.
Then...i saw another bus began to start its journey and....MY GODSIS WAS IN THAT BUS!!!OH MY GOSH!!i TOTALLY forgot bout her..how could i.Sueling and i ran towards the bus and chased after it.With a heavy emotion in my heart,i waved to my godsis and wished her goodbye.I missed the opportunity to hug her goodbye.Tears began to filled my eyes..trickled down my cheeks and i quickly wiped it off cuz I knew that she will be back again...soon.
The next day,sengfoo,puikhe and karweng left us pula..they were going to college.SIGH!!!...everyone leaving liao.Chingz deferring NS pula..gona leave us soon too.Sueling didn't kena NS so will be separated from her too.
WAWAWUWU~i don't want all of you to leave...especially chingz,lingsim and sueling..you're my closest friends ever.You were there when i was in trouble..guided me when i'm lost..lent me your shoulders when i need 1 to cry on..the one who always adviced me..the 1 who always helped me.As you all know,i'm emotionally weak,always blur and always needed your help.Where am i suppose to search for pple like you girls again?*sobsob*..really don't want to separate from you all err.I guess i have to begin to be independent..learn to be strong so pple won't bully me and take care of myself.Though we're gonna separate and have our own paths to walk,i want to thank you for every single thing you've done for me.I'm proud to have 3goodfriends like you.Chingz..be brave to voice out whats in your mind especially to the 1 special to you,k?!Lingsim..your mind always also change geh..mau pengsan liao.Sueling..lolx..said i timid wor,you also kinda shy what..haha.Don't forget me err when you all want to leave.I'm the one and only chiayin who always kik sei you all..lolx.
Yikes!!1st time blogging and i typed til as if i'm gonna leave now.LOLX...what to do..chiayin mer..hehehohohaha...ikiki.

2006-01-03T05:58:00.000-08:00

PORTRAIT OF A FRIEND

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.
But I can listen to you,
and together we will search for answers.
I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories
.But I can be there now when you need me to care.
I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.
Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.
Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.
I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.
I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,room to be yourself.
I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the piecesand put them back in place.
I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.

2006-01-03T05:51:00.000-08:00

GOODBYE TO ALL
It's hard to believe it's time to go
Leave this way of life,
spread our wings and grow
Say goodbye to those friends that we hold dear to our hearts
Shedding tears for we'll be so far apart
Remembering all the good times and even the bad
Including the fights we sometimes had
Through the tears and the pain
Friendship was our gain
We stuck together through sunshine and rain, laughs and shouts
We found out what true friends were all about
So as our senior year comes to an end
We'll carry in our hearts our special friends
And take with us all the memories that were made
Since that very first August day.